Night is Hardest
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Night is Hardest
| Mon, 12-20-2004 - 12:22am |
Does anyone else seem to have a harder time at night? maybe it's just having trouble sleeping? Maybe it's knowing I have to go to school and smile for hours and hours tomorrow. I am just always closest to giving up at night. Do you know what I mean? Debbie

Debbie: I have such bizarre sleep patterns that most nights I am getting up for the day about the time you posted this, luckily today I managed to get some sleep until 2am, much better than I had been the past few days.
I so hope your Dr can help, and you know, if you can hang in there, as soon as your dd flies back to Texas, check yourself into a hospital and get some 24/7 help if you need it. I can't imagine this world without you in it, so anything you have to do to get better, PLEASE do it, OK? Love and hugs, Josie.
Debbie,
I know what you mean about night...for me it is when I think the most and by nature I am a big thinker that is just my personality but that is also when I think about Jakob(my son) the most when I cry the most and when I hate me the most so ya I know what you mean about the night..it is hard but we make it thru and live another day and as time goes on I hope that you become stronger and continue to live more and more...also I agree with Josie that you should get some help that way you can become a better you and live your life..
I hope that things start to look better for you and that you are able to see the light at the end of the tunnel cause it is there we just have to work really hard to see it but you are strong and a fighter so I know that you will make it...
Sending you a ton of hugs and support
Erin
YES DEFINITELY! It's nice to know that I am not the only one who does this...not that I would wish this on anyone...but at least I don't feel so alone. I read a quote that describes how I feel at nite.
Where you used to be,
there is a hole in the world,
which I find myself constantly
walking around in the daytime,
and falling in at night.
I miss you like hell.
-- Edna St. Vincent Millay.
Even though there's no "you" other than the happy me...it describes my depression. During the day I keep myself occupied and I feel sad but I can't dwell on it...and at nite it's there and unavoidable.
Actually Night is not as hard for me, because at least I can sleep and help time pass. But I know it is soo difficult for sooo many. Your posts made me think of the Moody Blues song; "Nights in White Satin" but I suppose Im just dating myself LOL
Just wanted to let you all know, I do understand..
*hugs
*hugs
And.....thank you.