I'm very sad....

iVillage Member
Registered: 05-29-2004
I'm very sad....
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Tue, 12-21-2004 - 9:41am
I just needed to vent. This will be the worst Christmas I've ever had in my entire life. I have been out of work since April 30, and I am in a very bad situation. The result....I was unable to afford gifts for anyone this year. I literally h ave nothing for anyone. My heart is breaking, because that is what Christmas is all about to me....giving. I don't care in the least what I receive. I am deeply ashamed of being unable to afford gifts, so I have decided not to go to any of the Christmas gatherings I have been invited to this year. I can't let people know I have nothing to give. I am supposed to go to a gathering Christmas Eve, and also Christmas day. I have to decided to just stay at home and feign illness. I don't know what else to do. To make matters worse, my boyfriend's birthday is also Christmas day. I so deperately wanted to make the day special for him, and I can't do it. Now, I won't even be seeing him, since I can't admit I have nothing for him. Has anyone else ever been in this situation?
iVillage Member
Registered: 10-04-2004
Tue, 12-21-2004 - 10:04am

((((((((((((((Mariah))))))))))))


You do have something to give - yourself and your love. Christmas is about giving, but there is nothing in the Christmas rule books that says it means lots of presents! In fact, something small or hand-made (even if it is just a card) that comes from the heart means more to me than other gifts. If these gatherings include people you care about, then I suggest going and being honest with them. And if people don't understand why you can't give gifts this year, that is their issue and lack of sensitivity and does not reflect on you. You have nothing to be ashamed of.


peace and love,

just_a_big_kid