It would be so much easier if.....Triggs
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It would be so much easier if.....Triggs
| Thu, 12-30-2004 - 5:14pm |
I cant take feeling like this anymore. Im ruining the lives of my husband and kids. The only reason i am still here is because i owe my children 8 and 4. My life is so messed up right now i cant even stand my own kids and i think they would be so much better without me. I know thats not true but my sanity would be so much better without them. I know that sounds bad, But im at a point in this depression where i want everyone to go away and leave me alone. My kids my husband everyone. I hate myself, im so easily irritated and all i do is scream and yell, but all they do is fight and lie to me and everytime i try to do anything with them they make it so dam frustration i cant stand it. Most the time when my husbadn gets home i lock myself in my dark closet and dont come out for hours. Its the only place where the kids dont look and i can sit quitely in the dark and cry without having to explain to my husband why im crying. Does anyone else feel this way? and what can i do? Im going to the Dr on the 4th but im not sure how to say aany of this to him without him wanting to take my kids away. Im afraid of meds, and I dont know what to do. I have no money for a theripist. Thanks for listening, IM going back into the closet!
Chriss
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Thank you again for the support..
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