Situation Has Me Deeply Depressed
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Situation Has Me Deeply Depressed
| Sun, 01-02-2005 - 11:21pm |
I've had an ongoing situation that has me so depressed about life I feel almost suicidal. No matter what I do this situation does not seem to get any better. I was married to a very abusive man for 7 years. I've been divorced about 3 years. The problem that is making me so depressed is the fact that I have one daughter that just doesn't accept the split. She never wants to come back to me after she visits her father. She cries for literally hours after she comes home from his house. I've tried different things with this, letting her go see him more, but the transitions are very hard and it never seems to get better for her. She is 7. I don't know why she is so attached to this man who has hit me and beat me down for years. Letting her go live with him is not really an option, since he likes to do his own thing and it would basically be stepmom raising her if she did. But the fact that she continually wants to be over at his house just kills me. I do everything for her. I try to make my house fun too, I take her places, have her friends over, I bend over backward trying to make her happy. Seeing her so unhappy, crying and not adjusting to this after THREE YEARS makes me feel horrible and I think I was better off staying with the man would beat the crap out of me. Not having my daughters on most holidays and weekends is getting unbearable. (I have 2 daughters but it is mainly the 7 year old who doesn't want to be with me.) I think alot about just letting her stay over there but he is not there for her like I am. She is just tearing me up emotionally. I've tried counseling and every option I can think of over last few years and nothing seems to be helping the situation. After being beat down by him for years and now the great possibility of the kids living with him has me an emotional wreck. I've really been thinking some crazy things lately, when the kids were with him over the holidays I actually cleaned out the garage, pulled both my vehicles in and started them both up with the garage door shut. I didn't go thru with it though because I can't do that to the kids either.

Hi hun and welcome to the board
Remember taking a permanent solution to a temporary problem is never the answer.
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