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| Mon, 01-03-2005 - 7:07pm |
whatever this is.getting thru the days is near impossible...i bought some bach rescue remedy today but its not enough.i see my doc tomorrow & can hardly wait.
i'm taking prozac seroquel & trilyptle...something for every symptom but nothing is helping.i am supposedly bipolar but it seems that i stay down unless something distracts me & in my newfound manic states that distraction usually gets me in trouble.
the thing is...i don't seem to have an up till a distraction comes along.
right now i have none.
i have regret & despair.that's all.
when i see my dr. i have to tell him...
1...i never felt worse...altho that's probably not true...it's how it feels right now.
2...i desperately need a tranquilizer.nothing else will do.
3...in addition to my depression something is up with my meds b/c regardless of the stringent dieting i've been doing the scale won't budge under 20 pounds more than i am used to being.therefor i take 100 mg. of seroguel at night & do not sleep well.
i hope he has a magic bullet.
how do you get thru the days when you feel you cannot.& all the things you look foward to..;.well..they just don't seem possible anymore?
i'm taking prozac seroquel & trilyptle...something for every symptom but nothing is helping.i am supposedly bipolar but it seems that i stay down unless something distracts me & in my newfound manic states that distraction usually gets me in trouble.
the thing is...i don't seem to have an up till a distraction comes along.
right now i have none.
i have regret & despair.that's all.
when i see my dr. i have to tell him...
1...i never felt worse...altho that's probably not true...it's how it feels right now.
2...i desperately need a tranquilizer.nothing else will do.
3...in addition to my depression something is up with my meds b/c regardless of the stringent dieting i've been doing the scale won't budge under 20 pounds more than i am used to being.therefor i take 100 mg. of seroguel at night & do not sleep well.
i hope he has a magic bullet.
how do you get thru the days when you feel you cannot.& all the things you look foward to..;.well..they just don't seem possible anymore?

thank you
You're welcome. I hope you feel a little better today.
Elle
(formerly "whiter shade of pale")
i feel worse if that's possible.
& b/c of a change in insurance i am not sure if i'm going to be able to get new meds if i'm given a new script.the blessed tranquilizers maybe?
i don't have my new cards & info yet.
things are CLEARER tho.my marraige is suffocating.i hate it.if i had an opportunity to take my kids & leave today i would.
i hate that i feel this way.
i am trapped & have no place to go.
my husband is OBLIVIOUS to the problems.he is convinced its all my despair.he stopped going to counseling with me & when i decided to go on my own i was shocked to find the counselor in my corner.
for my entire adult life i thought it was me.
he's not abusive except for his desire to be in control...money & stuff like that.he doesn't expect much from me & i think he likes it that way.
he hates my illness but thrives on it....altho he would e the 1st to say that isn't true.
my skin crawls when he sits near me.
i've TRIED to get past this but i cannot.
i'm all alone.no one could possibly understand.
my life is over.i'm 43 & my life is done.
Wow, we really are twins.
You're wrong though when you say noone could possibly understand because I do, all too well. So I guess you're not really alone? I'm very sorry for what you're going through. I wish I had some words of wisdom for you.