It's a bad day

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Registered: 01-03-2005
It's a bad day
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Wed, 01-05-2005 - 7:01pm

I'm lonely, can't stop my tears today, and I miss my friend. I wish I could just talk to him one more time but I know I can't. He was my rock and I thought I was his. He understood me because he suffers much the same things. I can't seem to wrap my brain around the idea that I'll never even talk to him again. I've been fighting to get through every minute today and I'm so tired. I'm tired of feeling this way, tired of being depressed, tired of feeling unambitious, just plain tired. I see nothing in my future to look forward to.

Elle

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Registered: 04-20-2003
Thu, 01-06-2005 - 1:22am

i'm so sorry ab your friend. what happened that u can't see him again?
if u did post b4, i am sorry that i haven't seen it.

get busy and read some interesting books, rent some dvd's
go shopping clean ur house, and do do do exercise.

this will help w depression

do not stay still or else things will seem worse, and ur condition will
get worse.

i am so sorry again.

kitties

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Registered: 01-03-2005
Thu, 01-06-2005 - 4:24pm

He was a friend who after a couple of years I unfortunately fell in love with. Since I realized these past few months that he didn't feel the same way but was too nice to leave I did it for him and said goodbye. That he didn't fight it at all tells me I was right.

I am keeping busy but the hurt keeps coming anyway. I know it's stupid to talk about something like this when there are so many bigger problems in the world and right here on this board for that matter but I can't seem to stop the tears. I'm sorry.

Thank you for your response though. ;'-|

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Registered: 01-04-2005
Thu, 01-06-2005 - 5:28pm

Elle, he may have been too stunned to fight you. Or maybe he figured you had made your decision and fighting it wouldn't have done any good. Maybe he didn't know what to say.

It sounds like you made a decision based on assumptions - talk about it with him! Just because he doesn't love you in a romantic sense doesn't mean you can't still be friends and have a loving, supportive platonic relationship. Give him a call and just ask if you can talk about it.

Svetlana
Been there, done that, still friends.

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Registered: 01-03-2005
Thu, 01-06-2005 - 7:48pm
I just spent WELL over an hour responding to this with a long, well thought out post detailing EVERYTHING that's been going on for the past 6 months (at least) and then BLIP, suddenly it was gone. I can't believe I lost the whole thing. When I can stop banging my head on this pc I'll attempt it again.