Depressed husband...mayo diagnosis

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Registered: 01-10-2005
Depressed husband...mayo diagnosis
Mon, 01-10-2005 - 10:38pm
It appears that my husband wants out of our marriage, or at least that is what the Dr's said. He has had chronic headaches because of his sinuses and psychosomatic illnesses for the last year which has made him unable / unwilling to work on anything but laying on the couch.
I am now in a negative mood and venting.
He is at the Mayo clinic in their lock up right now because of his depression. He seems really happy there. There is nothing wrong with him, they told me, he just wasnt ready to get married, I am his problem, and we recommend marriage counseling because its basically my fault. This after coming there on Saturday for family night where they pounded in our heads that its not our fault.
I told them I appreciated their feedback, however, I am unwilling to take all the credit for his illness, period, and how dare they come back to me with that? I mean, what the hell is that? He is there until Thursday now and I am just sitting here feeling oppressed, unwanted, unloved, and down right pissed at the whole situation, and grief over such a waste of my love and life.
Up until he went there for treatment last week, I have been nothing but supportive, loving, while holding down a full time job and attending law school, while also giving every spare moment I have to him for massages, relaxation, yoga, meditation, exercise, and cooking healthy meals. The 30 minutes a day I allow myself to close my eyes while listening to BBC is short, but a godsend.
I was not prepared to hear this kind of vague prognosis.
I am crushed.
Not sure what to do but find a marriage counselor and ask someone for pills to make me work like a robot with no human emotion, joy, or self respect.