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| Tue, 01-11-2005 - 11:09pm |
Hello. I'm new. My names Nikki.. I'm 21. I've been lurking around for a while but recently my life has hit a low... and I'm so empty inside and alone I don't know what to do. My husband of 9 months has decided that he no longer wants to be married to me because he and I just can't get along. He says he loves me a lot (but he hasn't shown me love in many months) but there is no hope for us because he doesn't know how to make me happy and I haven't made him happy in a long time. It hurts so bad. I didn't marry him because I was pregnant or anyother rash reason to marry someone.. I simply married him because I love him so. We were a wonderful couple when we were dating but once we got married things changed drastically... and this is where we are now. I'm back at my parents house trying to figure out a way to make it work, what I'm going to do about my lease for our apartment......... I stopped crying the other day and have kept it all bottled up inside and hopefully thats where it will stay.
Somebody please kill me?
Nikki

Hi Nikki
Welcome to the board.
*hugs
Thank you. I don't feel much better today then I have been, but I am trying hard to be strong. I have to go back to my apartment today because of work (I've been off the past few days and staying with my parents) but with my crazy work sched. I will have to be at the apartment to get back and forth from work. (My parents live 45 mins away from where I work, my apartment is only 10 mins away.) Going back to the apartment means I will more then likely have to be there with my husband.... not that I don't miss him and want nothing more to see him, but it'll just bring more heartache to see him. I guess if things get bad and I can't stand it I will just have to come back to my parents and drive the long drive. I just wish that he would fix this so we could be together.
It's so weird how when we were dating we were so happy but the week we were married things started falling apart.. I guess some people just aren't meant to be together. His parents have a really strange marriage, his dad lives downstairs in the basement, she lives upstairs, they aren't even married if you ask me. Oh well, its confusing, but I guess my husband wants a relationship like that.... he does his thing, I do my thing and I come running when he calls but thats not how I was raised. Ugh. Oh well.
Thank you for your reply and to everyone who is reading and is concerned, thank you.
Nikki