had my D&C today (might trig)

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had my D&C today (might trig)
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Tue, 01-18-2005 - 7:55pm
hi all. wanted to thank you for your support from my last post. it really means a lot to have others out there to listen.
i saw my dr yesterday, and the sono was unchanged from saturday, regardless of the bleeding (the bleeding hasn't been very heavy, like a light period basically). my cervix still hadn't opened up at all. he was concerned because it was already 6 wks of waiting and he didn't think it was wise to wait longer. thankfully, i didn't have to convince him i really wanted to do the D&C for peace of mind. he already knew.
it went well, i was even taken back to surgery early. they are AHEAD of schedule, which never happens! i thought it'd take all day, since they barely fit me into the day as it was. i was only scheduled on the insistence of the dr to get his nurse to fit me in no matter what. otherwise i would have had to wait until wednesday or thursday. i awoke with fairly bad cramping, which they gave me meds to control. had to wait about an hour after that in recovery to prove i was ok, could walk and use the bathroom, keep liquids and also toast down. my DH was unable to get away from work so my mom was there. it was comforting to have her along. i wasn't upset with DH, although i'd have appreciated his support while there. he is manic/depressive and hospitals sometimes trigger him, have since he lost his dad at age 7. i don't push him to go in to a hospital, unless it is for our son and he needs to be there. then he doesn't complain either, just goes.
DS is at the inlaws right now, but will be home later. the nurse at the office said my hormones will do very crazy things after this, because up until now my body thought it was pregnant. now that the sac has been removed, the levels of hormones will change drastically and i will swing back and forth. she said anything i needed, just call and they would help me. i am nervous of starting another antidepressant. if i need to, i will, but i would rather try something with fewer side effects. missing a paxil cr really upsets my day, and having to stop taking them makes me sick for a few weeks. miserably so. she said to call if i continue being unable to sleep, and not be afraid to ask if i need some sort of med to help me through this. i have a checkup in 2 wks to make sure i am healing.
again, thank you for your kind words. it is reassuring to have others out there!
~leslie
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Wed, 01-19-2005 - 9:38am

((((leslie))))


I am glad it wasnt a long wait. It is good that you're up and around. Take it easy and try not to worry. This will be good for your body to heal. I am glad they went ahead and did the D&C that gives the body a heads up on healing. If you feel you need meds again don't hesitate! Don't go through this feeling even more depressed because of a chemical imbalance. You may have postpartum depression too. Just look after you! We are here for you!


Julie

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Wed, 01-19-2005 - 10:01am

Leslie,

Glad it all went okay and that you were able to have the surgery. I know you still feel a loss even though you had the surgery, but like the last post said, don't try to go thru this without meds if you don't have to. Your hormones probably will go a little haywire and with that imbalance a little help won't hurt. Keep reminding yourself you are on your way to healing! I hope it all really does go smoothly for you. I'll keep you in my thoughts.

Chris


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Wed, 01-19-2005 - 10:38am
i do feel somewhat better today. i have an empty, lonely feeling that i think will be there for a long time if not always. that feeling of never getting to hold or kiss my baby, because of losing that baby so early. but yet i feel ok, i am not in much pain and the bleeding is less than before (at least it is right now). DH went to work and took DS to daycare, so i am alone. in a way, i would wish he had stayed home with me. but then again, i am not the kind of person who wants someone looking after me all the time and asking me how i am feeling, if i need anything, etc. i take care of myself physically, and don't want to answer questions. right now i'm not sure how i feel, except that there isn't much physical pain and i know i will be ok. i do hurt from the loss but i also know i will survive this.
i had a dream last night, it was very strange. i dreamt i was in this native american museum-type place. that's the best description i can come up with. there was flowing water inside the place, like a small river inside it. strange. anyway, a man approached me as i was giving a tour to a group of people. he told me something about being happy, that i will have a baby soon, and not to believe this was the end. i started to cry and he told me not to cry, everything would be fine, and he walked away. then the people that were in the group started to talk, but i walked away and then woke up to DS pushing me to wake up. he wanted to go to see his friends in daycare, i suppose.
i slept ok last night, probably due to sleeping off the drugs. and i guess each day will come and go and everything will be ok. i hope the moodswings aren't too terrible, but i suspect they will be. if i am right, i will call the nurse and see what we should do to get me started on some meds. i hate when i am moody and it affects how i act around my DS especially, but also my DH. they don't deserve to be treated badly.
thanks again for your support ladies.
~leslie