When does it get easier?

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Registered: 05-27-2003
When does it get easier?
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Thu, 01-20-2005 - 3:26pm

Some days I just feel like I'm barely going to make it, like I'm barely keeping my head above water. I feel like I'm haging on by a thread and one more thing is going to make me lose it. I know the Lord gives us only as much as we can handle and He wouldn't let me fall, but it just seems like I'm always on the edge. I never get a little breathing room. It seems like it's always something- my ex, my family, work, money. When does it get easier? I don't ever feel like I am going to "slip" back into a depression, nor do I feel like I will ever come close to how I felt when I attempted suicide. It's just that I feel like I'm always carrying around the weight of the world and that any moment my knees are going to buckle. When do I get a break? When do I get to just breathe? It's like just when I get through one "crisis" another one comes creeping up and brings me down again.

Thanks for listening.

Karen

Karen
~Fake it 'til you make it~

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Registered: 04-07-2003
Thu, 01-20-2005 - 7:36pm

I have found in my life that when things like that start happening, that cascading of events that leaves you praying your fingernails don't break that you need to make time to take care of you.

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Registered: 02-20-2004
Fri, 01-21-2005 - 2:05am

Nice job!!! Can see why you're a leader.

I've been told so very many times that "God doesn't give you more than you can handle...it's just a series of small tests". Well, my reply has been "I'm waiting for the final"...that's the wrong answer now that I think about it! Although, I do feel like a centipede (sp?) most of the time...one shoe drops & another & another,etc. Somehow I just keep on walking and don't seem to run out of shoes. DAMN!!! Life sure is difficult sometimes. Glad you're here for those who need a gentle hug and some good information.

I won't interfere anymore.

Kathi

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Registered: 04-07-2003
Fri, 01-21-2005 - 9:35am

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