Prozac? (also possibly triggers)

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Registered: 01-22-2005
Prozac? (also possibly triggers)
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Sat, 01-22-2005 - 3:20am
Hi Everyone. I am new to the site. I have recently been diagnosed with depression....AGAIN. I've been diagnosed before, and been on meds but they didn't work. Then I moved and went to see my regular doctor and she then had me go up to Mental Health (mind you this was 2 days ago now.) She didn't want me to leave because I had had suicidal thoughts this past week. So with me not being on meds and not having anyone I was talking to, she figured it would be better for me to see the pdoc right then and there. Well, my 1:30 appt with my reg doc turned out to last until about 5pm in the entire hospital, including getting new meds. The pdoc gave me a script for prozac, because from what I can recall my mother takes that and it works for her. Unfortunately I'm not sure what she takes it for or anything like that, so this is pretty much just a shot in the dark. It's been rough for me lately. Basically its been a downhill umm, i wouldn't say climb, but I would say something along the lines of going down the drain really quickly. And it's a very odd situation. Well lets just put it this way, around the beginning of last week, I went to the kitchen and grabbed a knife and wanted to kill myself at around 3am. Of course I didn't do it BUT the thought was there. Although, I can't seem to figure out why I"ve been feeling the way I have, because I have a great husband, a great family, good friends, and everything is always paid for because we're military. The only thing I can think of is that maybe things from my childhood are coming back and kicking me in the butt and making me actually try to deal with everything all at once and it's just not working. I'm going to be working with the pdoc through the military hospital on the meds and he also gave me a number for a lady in another town to talk to for counseling. so we'll see what happens with that. I started on prozac yesterday. I really hope it works, I'm really getting tired of having all these bad thoughts. And it was suggested to me to start writing again, which is very hard unless I'm "writing to people" soooo this is where I'm going to start. Hopefully I can branch out and write on my own soon. But I think this is the best place to start. Thanks for listening. I know it probably didn't make a lot of sense.
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Registered: 05-13-2003
Sat, 01-22-2005 - 10:36am


Jersey,

I am so sorry you are going through this. I know how you feel. Unfortunately, the time before medication works/therapy works is difficult. Please have faith. Eventually, some medication (or combination thereof) will help ease your symptoms. (believe me if you knew how many different meds I have tried before I hit pay dirt you would be frightened.) I have had depression that was difficult to control over the years. I now am on a combination that works miracles for me. (zoloft and neurotin) Please be gentle with yourself. Go to see your therapist as soon as you can. Talk to your family and friends about your feelings. Write in a journal. Come back here as often as you need. Make sure to exercise.

You will be in my prayers.

S/A

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Registered: 04-07-2003
Sat, 01-22-2005 - 7:17pm

Jerseygirl05, welcome to our board.

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Registered: 12-06-2004
Sun, 01-23-2005 - 12:56am

Welcome!! I hope things go well for you. I am also on Prozac and have been and it works for me! Here's my advice for what it's worth-- Just like CL said it takes a while to fully kick in but hang in there! Also stick with it, and don't be afraid to ask for a full course of the Prozac (9-12 months worth) and take it religiously even if you think you're doing better to help avoid relapse by coming off it too early (I found this out through experience) I thought I was better so I stopped taking but I found out later that it actually could be detrimental to your recovery. Needless to say I'm going back on Prozac and no matter what I won't quit until my Dr. advises. I hope this helps!! Keep writing to us!! Good luck on this journey-- we're all with you, and we truly understand.

Lots of hugs
Miatagirl

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Registered: 01-22-2005
Sun, 01-23-2005 - 5:10am
Thank you all for your advice and encouragement. I've been on the Prozac since Friday. My sleep patterns are screwed up right now. I'm sleepy during the day but lie down for a nap and cant sleep. Then I get up and stay up til its "bedtime" then when I try to sleep, I can't. Finally yesterday at around 8pm I zonked out until 3am this morning. now its 5am and I'm wide awake and it stinks. But at least I got some sleep. I'm hoping that I can get my sleep schedule worked out along with counseling and the meds. I cant really do much about counseling yet because we just got about a ft and a half of snow:( YUCK. I hate snow. Anyways, thanks again ladies.
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Registered: 03-30-2003
Sun, 01-23-2005 - 10:41pm
i've been there, and i have to tell you that it is such a good sign that you are on your way back up that you are reaching out for help and doing everything you can to feel better. i had years of suicidal thoughts before i realized that even in the worst days, we only have one life so even if we wish it was going better, it's worth sticking around and enjoying the good stuff that may come later. i have been on prozac forever, and i think it is a great med. i'm sure they told you that it takes awhile to kick in completely- so don't be surprised if you don't "feel it" for a few weeks. keep fighting, you'll be ok! :)