bad weekend
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| Sun, 01-23-2005 - 10:53pm |
well, i'm sick AGAIN. this is getting so frustrating. because my stomach had been doing better lately, my body decided to let my throat start having "issues" the past few months- and then just for fun to give me a horrible stomach attack for old time's sake- which was followed by the flu. this sucks (can i say that word?)!
friday night, i couldn't get in touch with my doctor and i have no insurance (i'm trying, don't even get me started on that!) and my temperature was skyrockiting by the minute. when it hit almost 102, i knew i needed help and had to swallow my pride and call the "player" who made me so sad but is a really good doctor and lives in my building. he helped me and was super nice- even gave me a hug when i was so sick. like i needed that!!! aaah!
on top of all of this, i missed a really fun trip to la with my best friend- she went to the beach, went out with a group of people (my friends that i had her call!) and went to the hottest clubs and had a blast then went surfing! i'm happy for her, but i have been sitting here sick and not getting better quickly enough and worrying that i am going to need some serious help- or even surgery for some awful stuff going on with my throat (won't go into details, just trust me) and i don't want to be sick anymore- i have spent my whole life being sick and watching the world pass me by. i want to feel better- and live my life- people are starting to think they can't count on me to be healthy anymore- people are starting to think of me as "the sick person" again like when i was a kid and i hate it. i hate BEING sick too! i know i am repeating myself now, so i will stop.
it is hard to be alone and not feeling well and not knowing when it will get better. thanks for listening!

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I am sorry you are having such a problem with being sick.