lost "trigger"

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Registered: 01-26-2005
lost "trigger"
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Wed, 01-26-2005 - 9:50am
I've been suffering from depression for as long as I can remember. I finally managed to face the facts and went to my GP who put me on anti-depressants. I've been taking them for a year now however it's having no effects. I have no energy to do anything, no motivation whatsoever. I often get headaches and feel dizzy. But I find my emotions is getting out of control. I'm more sensitive to comments and I feel no worth or value in my life. I told my doctor and he refered me to a psychiatrist who didn't want to see me. I now feel trapped in my own world. Last month I felt really down I got a razor blade and cut my arms. I just didn't care anymore. Writing all this makes me cry again, as I see I have no future. I can't handle anything anymore. I tell my boyfriend everything and he always trys to help and encourage me, but I keep thinking he's saying for my sake in wanting me to get better. I'm sure my boyfriend is sick and tired of my problems as he sometimes tells me this himself.
Is it all in my head? am I seeking attention? I don't know, but I feel like I can sleep forever and give up on my life. I tried seeing another psychiatrist who told me to "snap out of it." I'm lost and don't know what else to do.
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Registered: 06-04-2003
Wed, 01-26-2005 - 9:59am
My suggestion is to look for another psychiatrist who will listen. There are more than enough of these psychiatrists who want to just tell you to snap out of it so it's important to look for one who will actually listen. Ask others around you for recommendations (you'll be surprised who all know's someone to recommend). I went thru this last year. I was seeing my GP for my depression but she ended up feeling like she couldn't help so sent me to a psychiatrist who basically send there was nothing else he could do and that he'd send the evaluation to my GP. I finally called someone else who I am seeing now but did ask around for some recommendations. It is really frustating to feel caught on the outside on your own.
Sandra.
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Registered: 01-04-2005
Wed, 01-26-2005 - 11:32am
There's a reason why there are so many antidepressants on the market - because what works for me may not work for you. You may have to try several before you find what helps. Talk to your GP about it, and if necessary, get a referral to a psychiatrist. Counseling can also be very helpful. I know it's frustrating - but hang in there and keep trying different things till you find what works for you.
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Registered: 03-19-2004
Wed, 01-26-2005 - 12:25pm

hi,

i have been battling depression and anxiety on and off since i was a child, i am scared to admit this but i feel its coming back. i have been through alot of changes in the last months; moving to the states, getting married, deling with immigration incompetents, ect...
i want you to know that you are NOT alone and that snapping out of it is the worst thing anyone can tell you..im sorry you are in so much pain and i wish you some comfort while you are in pain.
i dont have alot of advise but im sending you hugs and good vibes,
elissa