going to ER ggrrr (trigger?)
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| Fri, 01-28-2005 - 3:22pm |
ok if you are having a bad day maybe you should just skip this, it won't cheer you up a bit.
my dr's office wants me to go to the ER, and are calling them ahead. DH is on his way home to get me and is very upset at having to *waste* his afternoon when he has other stuff to do. so he is cancelling going to my parents tomorrow with DS and me, a bunch of the family is coming (we are close), and having dinner and drinks. well, i'm having dinner, probably not drinks as i'm not really feeling like alcohol will help at all. so maybe i'll just take DS then, if i can.
the PROBLEM:
i had my D&C for m/c a week and a half ago. i had an infection, caught early, treated in the ER a week ago today and take-home antibiotics. the last 3 days, give or take a bit, i have had worsening pain in my abdomen. today, i have visible swelling. dh can see it without me even peeling back my clothes, just pulling them across does it. he certainly hasn't been allowed to touch it, because even me touching it hurts. i called the nurse, and the dr's are not in today. GO FIGURE. so i have to go to the ER, and while i would say thanks but no thanks...this is serious. i have tried to tough it out for a few days and only gotten more pain and swelling as a result.
i'm very upset about this. i really hate going to the ER, and it doesn't help that they know us now. DS with his severe hemophilia (*oh yea, you guys have the little hemophiliac boy*) has brought us closer than i ever wanted to be with that staff. then my back injury and several trips in and out of there and 2 stays in the hospital made it clear who *the hemophiliac's mom* was.
this will make my 3RD trip to the ER in 3 wks. isn't that too much? i think it is. obviously i had to go the day i started to cramp and bleed, and found out about the baby. and the infection had to be treated, and the dr's were busy in the office and couldn't see me. now i feel like they will say, *oh god it's her again. what now?* and if they think that, they aren't going to take me seriously that something is wrong.
AAAAAARGGGHHHHHHHH. i know that line of thinking will not help at all, but i also know that's exactly what i'm going to be thinking when i get there and they recognize me! i don't live in a huge city, no, but it should be big enough that they do not know me for any reason. i appreciate that they have learned enough to treat DS appropriately (as in, do not make him wait for anything at all, or deal with screaming mother). i don't want them to know ME as a *hypochondriac* or whatever.
ok i will stop now. must rest before DH gets here.
thanks for listening guys, i had to get that out.
~leslie

Leslie!
Please dont worry about what they think! Just go and get better! With the fact that you had an infection you dont want to fool around with this.
*hugs
(((Leslie)))) I agree with Caly...you need to take care of you!!! To heck with what anybody thinks. We need you to get better. You need you to get better too.
Please know we are here for you. You are one of the many great ladys here at the board.
Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.
Take care,
Lisa-)
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I just wanted to agree with what Caly and Lisa have said...I hope you are taking care of yourself and did go to the ER. That's what's most important, that you get the treatment you need...you can take care of everything else later. Thinking of you...keep us updated,
Rose