depression is eating me alive

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Registered: 01-27-2005
depression is eating me alive
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Wed, 02-02-2005 - 1:37am

hey. im 22, live on my own and am very depressed lately.

ive had feelings like this that come and go and have been ever since i was little but the last time it lasted more than a day was 5 yrs ago. the guy i was seeing ( my only distraction from depression) just dumped me this morning and i feel like im all alone.

i have friends but theyre eitehr busy with their jobs, boyfriends, school or something else. ive been thining alot about death ( NOT suicide ) and when i motivate myself to do something then in the back of my head i m hit with a " what s the point? " . its like my mind is testing me. can i truly be happy again?

i dunno. has anyone ever felt like this?

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Wed, 02-02-2005 - 8:55am

Hi Lvee


I think we have all felt like that at one point.

*hugs             

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Registered: 01-27-2004
Wed, 02-02-2005 - 8:55am

I think I can safely say that everybody here has felt like that at one time or another.

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Registered: 10-20-2004
Wed, 02-02-2005 - 1:07pm

Oh yes,
You have a reason to feel so down - I think it's perfectly normal. As far as feeling alone, even though you're not, I know what you mean. I quit my job in Nov. to go back to school and I got really depressed and anxious. Even though I had people I could call, I didn't want to "bug" them - even though I know my friends are not like that, that's how I felt. Take a couple of days to grieve over what happened this morning then focus your attention on something else. Maybe you could hae lunch with a friend on their lunch break, have a get together at your place or see if there are any classes in your community you are interested in.

I've had depression come and go as well and I finally decided to try the anti-depressants my doctor prescribed. What she said made perfect sense, "if I told you something was wrong with your liver, you would take the medication - why wouldn't you take it when there's something wrong in your brain?" Death enters my mind quite a bit as well but I know I don't really want to die, I just want an escape. So I've signed up for cooking classes, planned a road trip and reunited with an old friend. What can you do to find your escape?

Give yourself a big hug - everything is going to be alright :-)

 

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Registered: 03-30-2003
Wed, 02-02-2005 - 9:58pm
i am so sorry about your boyfriend. that is NEVER fun and always makes your heart feel squashed and in a million pieces. when relationships end, i am always at my worst. you are at a tough age too, that in between where you are just finally an adult but probably not knowing what to actually do with your life or how to make good money yet. i am still going through that stage and i am 25. i'm sure you will feel better as your heart heals. i know that lonely sad feeling, but it does go away. just wanted you to know someone relates- and cares- and that you'll be ok.