depression is eating me alive
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depression is eating me alive
| Wed, 02-02-2005 - 1:37am |
hey. im 22, live on my own and am very depressed lately.
ive had feelings like this that come and go and have been ever since i was little but the last time it lasted more than a day was 5 yrs ago. the guy i was seeing ( my only distraction from depression) just dumped me this morning and i feel like im all alone.
i have friends but theyre eitehr busy with their jobs, boyfriends, school or something else. ive been thining alot about death ( NOT suicide ) and when i motivate myself to do something then in the back of my head i m hit with a " what s the point? " . its like my mind is testing me. can i truly be happy again?
i dunno. has anyone ever felt like this?

Hi Lvee
I think we have all felt like that at one point.
*hugs
I think I can safely say that everybody here has felt like that at one time or another.
Oh yes,
You have a reason to feel so down - I think it's perfectly normal. As far as feeling alone, even though you're not, I know what you mean. I quit my job in Nov. to go back to school and I got really depressed and anxious. Even though I had people I could call, I didn't want to "bug" them - even though I know my friends are not like that, that's how I felt. Take a couple of days to grieve over what happened this morning then focus your attention on something else. Maybe you could hae lunch with a friend on their lunch break, have a get together at your place or see if there are any classes in your community you are interested in.
I've had depression come and go as well and I finally decided to try the anti-depressants my doctor prescribed. What she said made perfect sense, "if I told you something was wrong with your liver, you would take the medication - why wouldn't you take it when there's something wrong in your brain?" Death enters my mind quite a bit as well but I know I don't really want to die, I just want an escape. So I've signed up for cooking classes, planned a road trip and reunited with an old friend. What can you do to find your escape?
Give yourself a big hug - everything is going to be alright :-)
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