In need of some helo

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Registered: 02-03-2005
In need of some helo
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Thu, 02-03-2005 - 9:34pm
Hi everyone. I'm in need of some help. I'm a 20 year old college student and I feel like my life is crumbling around me. As a child I was abused by my parents and eventually was taken out of thier custody but not until I had endured four long years of phyisical and sexual abuse. My great-gradnmother and grandmother took me in after I lived in a series of group homes and foster homes until around age 17. Sadly my great grandmother died a little less than a year after I moved in with her and then not even a year after that my grandmoter passed away. My gradnmothers were the only people in my entire life that had actually showed me any love or compassion, now they are gone. The house they lived in was put up for sale by my mother and my aunt, everything they had was left to them on the account thier was no will and I get nothing. I don't know what to do, I fear that everything I do right now is a waste of time because in a month when the house sells I will be living on the streets. I do not trust my mother or my aunt, they are both very greedy and out for themselves. They say they will try to help me, but I don't belive they will. Once they get thier share of the house, I fear they will just leave me on the streets. My entire life for 20 years has been nothing but bad. Everyday I get more and more bad news. I try to postive and look on the bright side but I see nothing bright about my future anymore. I have been through so much and I'm an emtional wreck. I don't see myself being able to make it through another diaster like this. I have fought so hard for the little that I have now and it seems like it is not worth fighting for anymore anytime I get anything or accmplish anything it is taking away from me by some kind of bad event. I cannot understand how so much can wrong in one person's life. I keep telling myself that things will have to get better because they have already gone so bad and that my luck has to change sometime but I'm startng to doubt it now.
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Registered: 01-27-2004
Thu, 02-03-2005 - 11:10pm

(((((Buttafly))))), I'm so sorry for what you've been through.

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Registered: 03-31-2003
Fri, 02-04-2005 - 8:48am
i agree whole heartedly with lady irish. there are places that will help you. especially considering your financial situation. the community councelors are usually very good. especially because they tend to do their job not because of money but because they genuinely care about and want to help other people. i will not tell you it will all be easy, but as i told someone else earlier. god dose not send you things you can't handle. considering what you have already lived through, you must be a very strong person. remember that, and that this to shall pass. if you do not believe in god, try to find some kind of spiritual understanding. even if it is just the knolage that someone knows all your troubles, loves you, and believes in you. i know that many times that is the only thing that got me through. also, as lady irish said, many places of worship have services to help you, not the least of which is just to give you a strong shoulder to lean on. try to focus on just what has to be done, day by day. try not to obbess about the big picture. one step at a time, even small steps, will get you down the road to the place you belong.prayers and love, god bless and take care. Becky

 


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