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bad anxiety returning, scared
| Sat, 02-05-2005 - 1:28pm |
this is silly, i know i shouldn't be afraid but i am.
as you guys know, i just had my second m/c a few weeks ago and the D&C. by now i should have been healed enough to begin *sexual relations* (LOL) with my DH again. but i had that infection, then the appendectomy last weekend...so it's been prolonged. i expect when i see the dr tuesday he will say i am ok to have sex as long as it doesn't hurt, if it does to stop. that's what i think he'll say. DH has been pressuring me heavily, even before the appendectomy, and he knows we can't but not an hour goes by (if he is home) that he isn't mentioning it or kissing on me. i love having his attention, yes, but i am TERRIFIED of having sex again. silly, i know. i have been with this man 7 1/2 yrs, there is nothing to be scared of. he wouldn't intentionally hurt me, but i am scared i will be hurt, or have an infection, or get pregnant and lose the baby...even though i'm getting ready to start birth control again, and until it works use condoms...my mind just keeps building it up to scare me.
thanks for listening girls. i need to call my dr and get in to start some anxiety meds or something.
~leslie
as you guys know, i just had my second m/c a few weeks ago and the D&C. by now i should have been healed enough to begin *sexual relations* (LOL) with my DH again. but i had that infection, then the appendectomy last weekend...so it's been prolonged. i expect when i see the dr tuesday he will say i am ok to have sex as long as it doesn't hurt, if it does to stop. that's what i think he'll say. DH has been pressuring me heavily, even before the appendectomy, and he knows we can't but not an hour goes by (if he is home) that he isn't mentioning it or kissing on me. i love having his attention, yes, but i am TERRIFIED of having sex again. silly, i know. i have been with this man 7 1/2 yrs, there is nothing to be scared of. he wouldn't intentionally hurt me, but i am scared i will be hurt, or have an infection, or get pregnant and lose the baby...even though i'm getting ready to start birth control again, and until it works use condoms...my mind just keeps building it up to scare me.
thanks for listening girls. i need to call my dr and get in to start some anxiety meds or something.
~leslie

(((((Leslie))))), there's absolutely nothing silly about your fears.
definitely am scared to have sex with this pain and this irrational fear of getting pg and losing the baby. i know i am probably not even ovulating again yet, i haven't had a period either, but i still fear going through that again. (and sorry if TMI, but i think condoms kinda hurt, but i know i won't get him to wait another month till bc pills kick in)
anyway, baby is upset, off i go...
~leslie