had a fight with father & computer

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Registered: 08-30-2004
had a fight with father & computer
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Mon, 02-07-2005 - 2:44am

Hello! Everyone!

I had typed out what i wanted to say once and my computer said resources is low and closed all my browsers, so now i type it the second time. Hope this time, this computer will not give me the same problem.

I had a fight with my father about him cares for my sister and not me. My younger sister.
I had a tough time, have to stand up for myself against the bullies in school, have to face an abusive father, no friends, no relatives that supports me, no relatives that cares about me.

Now i am upset, that i had a tough time in school , and i am taking my time to heal myself, my father expects me to work and buy a car for him.

And i hope to have someone who truly cares about my well-being, a boyfriend,someone who would share my burden. And i just don't understnad that i am moral person and that i hate guys because they always look at appearances. Although i am not good-looking, i am plump, and looks ordinary but i have a kind heart. It just people don't understands.

And i don't feel like going out although i have lesson this evening,because i have scratch marks on my arms.Well...the fight with my father is that he is concern about my sister rather than me. I wish he would show concern about me.

Just why can't he do it? I have no one. I have left father , mother and sister.

Although i have a counsellor, she does not care about me. I only saw her twice, and that she does not return my calls. If i do catch her sometimes, she answered her phone and said oh...i was thinking of calling you but i was too busy so did not call you...but well...you called.

What should i do?

I am just unhappy and i am hoping and praying. Pray that things in my situations like my relationship would improve and that I would have a boyfriend who truly cares and loves me.

I am hoping and praying. Else i have nothing to live for in this world.

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Mon, 02-07-2005 - 7:52am

Hi Katheryn


I dont quite understand what sort of counselor you have but I would definately try to find a new one.

*hugs             

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Registered: 01-27-2004
Mon, 02-07-2005 - 8:33am

(((((Katheryn))))), I second everything Caly said.

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Registered: 06-26-2004
Mon, 02-07-2005 - 10:53am

It is hard being a teenager. I don't know how old you are but I am guessing maybe 16-17. I wouldn't want to go back to being that age again for anything in the world. Kids at school can be downright cruel. I'm sure it is not easy. But this is all part of growing up.

Think of the positives you have. You have your whole life ahead of you. Enjoy your life. Plan something fun to do, something to look forward to. Be good to yourself. Think about joining a gym or doing something involving exercise. Exercise can be very therapeutic.

There have been some very low, low points in my life. At these times I force myself to get out of the house and do something. I have done things like get on my bike and just ride out all of the anger and frustration out of me. Or I go for a jog and get those endorphins going. I have been dealing with severe depression on and off the last 3 years after a bitter divorce. But I do find certain things will ease things for me. I get to where I am almost dysfunctional, bearly being able to take care of my kids, let alone myself. But I find on those days I have to literally force myself to get out and do something. I go out and get a pedicure, or go shopping.

Just some suggestions to help you. Do something for yourself today. Pamper yourself. Post anytime here, as an outlet. We are all here for your for support.

Take care. Jody