New here & looking for support

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Registered: 04-02-2004
New here & looking for support
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Mon, 02-07-2005 - 12:31pm
HI,
I decided to check out this board because I am really in need of some support. I am a mother of two beautiful girls who is currently in college and about to marry a wonderful man who I love very much. Instead of being happy, I am going through alot of depression. If I am honest with myself, I have to admit that it started in the hospital after my daughter was born five months ago. I know all the signs of post-pardom depression; my mother, who has borderline personality disorder, is an involved leader in the mental health peer groups in our area and she has given me all sorts of information. Also, I've taken three psychology classes in college, two of which were about mental illness. But despite all of this, I kept telling myself that because I didn't feel suicidal or have any urges to self harm, that I was fine and could get through this myself. Now I am to the point were I can't hide it any longer. My fiancee is really worried about me, my family can see that I am strained and not myself, and it is harder and harder to get out of bed in the morning. I have an appointment on friday to see my Doctor, I just need a little support from others who have been where I am. Being a rational person, I know that seeing her is the best thing that I can do for myself and my family, yet I am overwhelemd by worry, fear, and feelings of failure. Any thoughts or kind words would be greatly appreciated!
Thank You!
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Registered: 04-07-2003
Mon, 02-07-2005 - 12:48pm

((((((((((((sweetie)))))))))))))))) welcome to the board.

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Registered: 03-31-2003
Tue, 02-08-2005 - 8:30am
yes, we are here for support. i can remember feeling many times like "i have everything i want, why can't i just be happy?" well the truth is if you have depression you can't necessarily be happy just because you have everything you want. it is work. it is a journey, and as the last post said. you are on the right track. and each journey starts with one step. keep your head up, concentrate on what you need to do today. worry about tomarrow tomarrow. i know this is a tall order, but you can do it. you have already started. baby steps. welcome. prayers and much love. hang in there, you will make it, and it will be worth the work, i promise.

 


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