Will it ever get better?

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-13-2005
Will it ever get better?
5
Sun, 02-13-2005 - 9:59am

Hello, I just joined Ivillage in search of finding more support from the outside. I am 30 years old, a wife and mother of two children 11 and 2. I have dealt with depression, anixiety, panic and OCD basically my whole entire life. I am currently on a medical disability from my employment, due to a mental breakdown, which took my to er. I am involved in counseling right now, and on many anti depressants. I have been sober now since Thanksgiving!!! I just don't know what more to do... I am exhausted daily and try to stay focused for my family. It just seems no matter what I try I just feel more depressed and more like why am I here.

I am hoping to receive some positive advice on things I can do to get through this terrible rut in my life....

Thank you for reading this and understanding the daily pain that exists in this word called "depression".

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-07-2003
Sun, 02-13-2005 - 11:39am

Welcome to the board,

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-27-2004
Sun, 02-13-2005 - 11:59am

(((((kdc))))), welcome to the board.

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-13-2005
Mon, 02-14-2005 - 9:20am

Ladyirish, thank you so much for your response. You seem to be going on the track that I hope to get on... I know it will take much time for me to feel better, but then I get those days where I am like what is going on why aren't I better yet. It is so hard when I have a family to care for when I don't even know how to care for my self. I am trying to get myself together right now, I need to go get new glasses, but as you probably know, leaving the house can be so scary.

It is also a windy day, cold and yucky which makes matters worse... Well, I had better get myself together and get going.

Again, thank you and I am glad to have met someone to talk to about this awful illness.

Have a good day..

KDC

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-13-2005
Mon, 02-14-2005 - 9:23am
Thanks alot cl-tracarts for giving me some positive advice. I am really glad that I joined this message board, I feel like I can meet some very positive influences outside of my family. KDC
Avatar for svetlana1833
iVillage Member
Registered: 01-04-2005
Mon, 02-14-2005 - 9:49am

KDC, it does get better. Like Mary said, though, sometimes the best you can hope for is control rather than elimination. Now, I know that's not very encouraging, really, but for me, acknowledging that fact was actually very empowering, because then I had a better understanding of how I needed to take care of myself. Then I was able to go forward.

It's not an easy road, but when the trail gets rocky, remember that the Universe supplies us with sturdy shoes. :-)