not all over again(trigger)

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Registered: 03-08-2004
not all over again(trigger)
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Sun, 02-13-2005 - 6:01pm

Well firstly a very good male friend of mine today tells me he wants me i feel sick why do all men do this to me? he has a gf he knws im engaged i feel sick! he was amazin i thought, nice good lookin and honest guy he;s just disappointed me. I do this every guy i make friends with no wonder my bf doesnt like it im so cheap and nasty!

My mum jst got off the fone to me too..things were goin great but she told me my uncle is comin from abroad my dad's bro to get my parents back together and she said it indirectly if i didnt meddle with their relationship..like talk to my dad it'd b ok. But i did and i started cryin she said i knw ure cryin for money. i go no its not the money..i wanted my dad im nt cryin for the money i swear.she goes u did it without him before so u can do it now. i feel sad all over again. and i hate my dad jst usin me to get into the house and abuse my mum!

i jst want to disappear..men make me sick too..i want to see my bf so badly might go tomorrow but i have uni but right now i dont care so much! :( i jst want him to hold me but i cant tell him bout my friend...he'll go mad.

someone shoot me!

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Registered: 01-27-2004
Sun, 02-13-2005 - 7:39pm

(((((Sami))))), nobody is going to shoot you.

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Registered: 03-08-2004
Mon, 02-14-2005 - 7:11am

hi,

thanx mary, means a lot. my bf didnt call me cheap and nasty, i did. I just hate the fact every guy im friends with always hits on me or asks me out..i just can never b their friend