Feeling so hopeless
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| Mon, 07-20-2009 - 8:11pm |
I am trying to reach out for any help I can get tonight. I know I need professional help but I am having a hard time finding a place with evening or weekend hours.
I have suffered from depression all my life and have found little help. I try to cope but I always relapse.
I have just had a horrible day. I was put on probation at work because I used my cell phone. I was pretty much told I was being made out as an example because the boss admited everyone does it but I got caught by the owner. I honestly care less about this job but I need a means of support for me and my son.
Then, my EX, who has visitation with our son tonight is acting like a jerk. This week is vacation bible school at my church this week. Ex is putting up a fit because it is interfearing with his time but this weekend both sat and sun I let him spend a few hours with our son (not part of visitation). He is an ass. At the end of school year he was complaining about doing homework with our son. That is part of being a responsible parent not just taking him out to have fun.
I am so upset right now I can barely take it. The only reason I have to go on is my son. It hurts so much.

Welcome from a fellow Michigander! What city do you live in?
Can I speak frankly with you? You are reaching out for help and that is wonderful. I really commend you for that. What you can do first thing in the morning, call your primary physician. Start there. Let them know your feelings and that you really need to speak to someone. Also call your insurance agency to find out what mental health services are covered and if you need a referral to see a pdoc/tdoc. If you do not have insurance, call the county mental health department to find out what services are available for low/no cost.
Once you get an appointment and put on meds, you will feel soo much better. Remember that recovery is possible but it will in fact take time.
Please keep posting. I am worried about you.
Hi Susan,
I am still struggling today but I've made it to the end of the day.