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| Tue, 07-28-2009 - 2:37pm |
Hi. My name is Kayla. I am 22 and am a mother to 2 wonderful kids and am married to a great man. I own a home, and a new car. I have a really cute dog! So you think all would be swell, right?
WRONG
I don't know that I am depressed or not so I thought I would come here for advice before going to the dr.
I cry at the slightest things. I worry a lot and I hate it. I am afraid my husband will wreck on his way home. I worry that someone will break into our house. I worry that he will want another woman because I am fat and have many stretch marks. ( I KNOW he would NEVER cheat, it just worries me)
I had tears in my eyes at work the other day because I wanted to be at home with my family and never go back. My dd starts kindergarten in August and I am DREADING it. Is is all day 5 days a week. That would be fine if I were a sahm, but I work 4 EVENINGS a week. 3-11 is my shift. Therefore, on the days I work, I will see her long enough to say bye before she goes to school, then I will be at work when she gets home and goes to bed.
ok this is making me cry....
ugh I hate this.
I am not mean to my kids, but I am not really nice either. I just feel awful because when I am at home I don't really play with them, instead I am constantly saying go, get out of here, go play...
Then when I get to work I miss them so so so much. I realize that they won't be small for long and I need to cherish EVERY moment with them, but at the moment when I act that way I cannot help it...
I don't know what is wrong with me... are conditions such as bipolar, depression... hereditary?
My dad has had bipolar disorder for years now. I don't know if that makes a difference.
SORRY this was so long... I am just a mess... thanks for reading




Kayla - welcome and gentle ((HUGS)) to you!
What you have written, that was me until I sought help! Sounds like you are overwhelmed, anxious and exhausted! Ugh. Not a good combination. What you need to do is go to your primary physician and let them know all of your feelings, don't leave anything out. S/he will put you on some meds and then you