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| Thu, 09-10-2009 - 9:46pm |
I have been fighting those feelings of worthlessness, shame, guilt, tiredness,not wanting to be around anyone, but yet wanting someone to notice somethings not right. Im tired of going to work and putting on this fake smile, laugh, and happy mood. When all I really want to do is hide in a corner and cry. Then I have to come home and deal with my two sons that constantly want to me pay attention to them. I try hard to not show or get angry with them because they dont understand how I feel. I just dont know how much longer I can keep up this fake crap. I once talked to this doc and he just looked at me like I was stupid and told me it was just because I was over weight and lose some weight. Haven't been to another doc since. How do you deal with keeping up with the fake smiles, laughs, and excitement to be around people?

Of course, we know that weight is never the issue.