I'm back yet again...

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Registered: 03-23-2005
I'm back yet again...
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Thu, 09-17-2009 - 6:54pm

I usually tend to only visit this board when I need advice, but I really do need some advice.  For those who do not know me, I am Shelly and I am 24 years old.  I have suffered from OCD/Anxiety/Depression for the last 8 years.  I have been dating my wonderful boyfriend Drew for the last 1 year and 8 months, and he makes me so happy.  This past May, I became an aunt to a little boy named Logan!  He is the cutest baby that I have ever seen! 


My problem is that my depression cycles alot.  I can be doing ok for about 3 weeks or maybe even a month, but then when my depression hits, it hits hard.  I start compulsively shopping and buying things that I don't need in order to try to make myself happy.  I am not currently on meds right now, as I have not had insurance for almost a year.  I now have insurance, but I have not had a chance to go to a dr to get the meds. 


I am really worried because my dad/stepmom/2 stepsiblings are moving 3 hours away today.  My mom got remarried in July and moved about 3 hours in the other direction from me.  My sister lives about 40 minutes away from me.  I am just depressed because I feel like all of my friends do not have time for me anymore, and my family is leaving me.  I feel that I am clinging so hard to Drew because I feel like he is all I've got.  I am afraid of clinging to him too tight that I push him away, does that make sense? 


I don't really know what I am looking for here ladies, but I just need to know that everything will be all right and that I am not totally alone.   If there are any good depression books that you can recommend, that would be great. 

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Registered: 09-02-2005
Mon, 09-21-2009 - 9:08am

Hey Shelly! You are not alone. Remember DS is here for you.


Now, let me ask you this, when you say that your depression cycles, by any chance is it when AF is due to appear? That can have alot to do with it.


Do yourself a big favor and make the time to get to the doctor. It would do you a world of good.


p.s. I have not read any books about Depression. I like to read romance and biographies.


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Registered: 08-06-2009
Mon, 09-21-2009 - 12:48pm

Hi, Shelly -


I read "The Noonday Demon" by Andrew Solomon and I highly recommend it.

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Registered: 03-23-2005
Tue, 09-22-2009 - 3:18pm

It actually does not have anything to do with AF.

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Registered: 03-23-2005
Tue, 09-22-2009 - 3:21pm
I ordered that book this morning from Amazon, so I will definitely read it and let you know how it is.
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