Wreck of the day

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Registered: 08-03-2008
Wreck of the day
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Mon, 09-21-2009 - 7:08pm

I am not new to feeling pain and loss in my life. But, I feel like even though the pain is not gone I'm feeling freer. I know that my friend and godfather that passed away are in a better place and watching over me. I realize that they would want me to be happy. It hurts about the break up of my relationship but I'm feeling free from that too. I have less baggage and I can spend more time focusing on myself and school and shaping the life that I really want. I thought I would spend my life with him but with his addictions and being in prison I'm exhausted from the rollercoster ride and I don't deserve to be treated that way. He won't give up her friendship for me knowing it pains me. He doesn't accept me for who I am anymore. He doesn't want to live with me. It's painful to say goodbye and any ending or loss but those are deal breakers and things I refuse to accept any longer. The pain is fading as I am seeing more clearly and feeling free.

Christina

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Registered: 09-02-2005
Fri, 09-25-2009 - 1:53pm

Christina - I am beyond thrilled for you! I am so proud that you got rid of the excessive baggage.


I, too, I have gotten rid of alot of unnecessary baggage over the past year and couldn't be in a better place.


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