LIFE IS BEATING ME DOWN!!!!

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Registered: 06-30-2001
LIFE IS BEATING ME DOWN!!!!
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Tue, 09-29-2009 - 12:59pm

Hello,

It has been a long time since I've posted, but felt the need to today.

In the last 4 years.....I have lost my mother and brother to illness, I have changed careers and realized it was the biggest mistake ever....have major financial problems now, I am currently going thru a marital separation AND I got laid off a week ago.

I feel empty inside!! Like a shell of a person. I feel there's nothing left....my depression comes and goes and I'm trying so hard to keep my chin up but oh my God! I have had thoughts of suicide but I have a son who needs me so thank God for him.....or else I dont think I'd be here.

In time, I know things will improve. I'm just so tired of having the rug pulled out from under me.

Thanks for listening.

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Registered: 08-06-2009
Tue, 09-29-2009 - 4:00pm

Wow, you really have been hit from all sides.

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-30-2001
Tue, 09-29-2009 - 4:38pm

Thank you!

Yes.....I have been trying to get back to what I used to do. It is taking forever tho.....but I will be patient. At least I wont have any "I should haves" when it comes to the career change....AND it did improve my self esteem and introduce me to some great people so it hasnt been all bad. I have an interview tomorrow and I hope I do well.

Thanks again!

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Registered: 09-24-2009
Wed, 09-30-2009 - 4:52pm
Hi, Pmw730! I got your message. I am sorry to hear that you are going through a tough time. I can identify with a lot of your feelings. I know what it is like to be depressed enough to want to end my life. I know the despair of being unemployed as well as what it feels like to have life beat you down. I just posted a discussion on this board today titled What do I do when everything fails. I was just responding to one of my replies and I saw yours. I am extremely depressed right now and I am not feeling suicidal at the moment. But I know how tired you can get when you are stressed to the max and you don't think that you can handle one more bad thing and then you get hit with yet another bad thing. I have lost my Dad, Cousin,
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Registered: 06-30-2001
Wed, 09-30-2009 - 5:10pm

((HUGS))

What a breath of fresh air your post was. THANK YOU!!!

Whew!! Life can be soooo hard and unfair. Im sorry for your losses.....and your difficulties. Its true, tho, it shows us what we are made of and makes us stronger.

No....Im not gonna stand for a TKO.....I never will and i dont want you too either. Thank you for lifting my spirits. It means a lot and really shows me how support can make a world of a difference.

You'll be in my prayers as well. Take good care of yourself... xoxox

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Registered: 09-24-2009
Wed, 09-30-2009 - 7:14pm
Hi,PMW730! I am glad that you found my message refreshing. You are very welcome! Thank you for your condolences. No TKO on my watch! Never not even if chocolate became exstinct LOL! I agree with you support makes a big difference. My circumstances have not changed a bit but after coming here today my attitude has and I feel a lot better. After getting your message and others I know that there are people that care that are rooting for me. Together there is no stopping us! I am going to tell you what I think your online name means. P stands for Positivity, Power, Perseverence. M stands for Mindset, Mom. W stands for Will, Win, Work, Wisdom, Woman. 7 is God's number. 3 represents the Holy Trinity. 0 represents zero tolerance for defeat. All together your online name means You are a Woman and Mother with the will and wisdom to work through life's difficulties to win. With a positive mindset and zero tolerance for defeat and God on your side you have the power to persevere...................... Love and Unity, Art4sol
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Registered: 06-30-2001
Wed, 09-30-2009 - 8:18pm

OH MY GOODNESS!! Art4sol......you are an angel sent to me in my time of need... :-) Your message made my heart all warm and fuzzy.....thank you so much!

Yes, there are people who care for you and want the best for you. I can feel from your message you are an amazing person.....loving, giving and compassionate. The kind of qualities that will bring blessings for sure. Have you read the Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren? Im reading it now and it has shed light on many things. One of the chapters addresses struggle and how no matter what we go thru God has our back because life here on Earth is preparation for eternal life. I believe there are signs from God and he answers our prayers....but we have to be open to see them. This is one of them... :-)

You sure have touched my heart and my life. I feel better and Im happy you do too!!!

((HUGS))....and Kisses

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-24-2009
Wed, 09-30-2009 - 9:31pm
Hi, Pmw730! It's me again. Thank you for all of the sweet words and compliments. I own a copy of the Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren. I believe that God answers prayers and gives us signs to. I am glad that God has used me to touch your heart and life today. He is using you to touch my life. I am getting ready to read a book titled Perfecting your purpose 40 days to a more meaningful life by David D. Ireland. Hugs and kisses to you to. Take care
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Registered: 06-30-2001
Wed, 09-30-2009 - 10:56pm

Hi "me again".... :-)

Somehow I figured you read Purpose Driven Life....I will have to look for Perfecting your Purpose.

Keep me in your thoughts and know I am praying for you and a life full of all good things....ALWAYS!!

xoox

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-24-2009
Thu, 10-01-2009 - 2:20pm
Hi, Pmw730! I got your last message. I wanted to share a little prayer and encouragement with you. Dear Heavenly Father, Creator of heaven and earth we worship you today. We thank you for all that you have done in our lives. I lift up my sister to you in prayer today. I pray that you will strengthen her and comfort her through this difficult time. Lord touch her heart and renew her mind. Open her spiritual eyes and ears to her from You. Refresh her spirit today. Jesus let your healing virtue flow through her now from the crown of her head to the soles of her feet. Lord send your angels to minister to her and to guard and protect her and her son. Jehovah Shalom the God of peace I ask that you will give the peace that passes all understanding to my sister
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Registered: 06-30-2001
Thu, 10-01-2009 - 3:35pm

Art4sol.....THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART for your prayer and song!!!!! It lifted my spirits and I still feel good today... :-) I am glad helping others makes you feel good.....me too. I love to help and I know in many ways I have touched many lives.

Wishing you a blessed day and a life that blesses you with love, joy and peace.

HUGS!!

xoxox

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