HELLO ALL

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-05-2009
HELLO ALL
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Mon, 10-05-2009 - 1:58pm


I have been fighting depression for the better part of 55 years and still continues. I am 62, mother of 4,grandmother of 6 and mommy to 2 little dogs. On top of depression, I have a neuro-musclar disease, fibromyalgia, high blood pressure, stomach ulcers, 2 hernias, sleep apena, IBS.....uh....I think that's all. Enough, huh?

I am trying to crawl out of my third nervous breakdown. I lost my job a few months ago and promptly proceeded to have a breakdown. I had to break the lease on my apartment, put all my belongings in storage and move into my ex-husband's travel trailer. This parked on my middle daughter's property, fairly close to her house. I could be living in her house if I get rid of my dogs. I've been thru enough without having to do that. The trailer is not leveled and leans quite a bit, I also do not have a fridge or stove. I go to my daughter's for dinner every night made very uncomfortable since my son-in-law doesn't want me here.

The doctors have been playing with my meds and I have been on a roller coster of emotions. Right now I am on EffexorXR, Wellbutron, clonazipam and Lunestia (for sleep). I also take Lyrica for pain & Immuran, Meston & Predisone for the neuro musclasr problem. I take blood pressure meds and I usea C-Pap machine at night to keep me breathing while I sleep.

This has been the most difficult bout I have had and I have been contiplating my future (or lack of one). I have never in my life felt so worthless or hopeless. I have a real fight on my hands and can use all the support I can get. Thank you for listing to me ramble but I do feel better now.

Thanks

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-06-2009
In reply to: simplyputjustme
Mon, 10-05-2009 - 7:29pm

Hi, simplyputjustme - You are not worthless!

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-02-2005
In reply to: simplyputjustme
Mon, 10-12-2009 - 5:33pm

I am glad that you found us. I am so happy that you are working with your doctors to get the right combination of meds down. It sure does help.


Again, welcome and I hope to see you around the board.


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Registered: 10-14-2009
In reply to: simplyputjustme
Wed, 10-14-2009 - 9:30am

It's obvious that you're a fighter if you have made it this far. Losing a job is hard on self-esteem as well as the financial issues that come with it. Being unemployed for three months definitely did NOT help my depression symptoms but it helped that the bad economy wasn't only affecting me. You have been through hard times before and you came out of it, and have faith that you will beat this too! Are you going to a support group, church, or have some other kind of spiritual outlet? I would not be able to get through the tough times without these! Big hugs to you, you are going to make it through this.

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