I'm a mess.

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-12-2009
I'm a mess.
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Mon, 10-12-2009 - 8:58pm
I don't even know where to start. I'm trying to make my life feel better but.. it just can't work. Plus, it's my own fault. I've been depressed for at least 6 years now. It all started with an abusive boyfriend and stemmed out from there. He's gone now but my insanity isn't. I always feel like everyone is out to get me. Even my boyfriend who I've been with for about 6 months now. It's a good thing he's a little understanding. He still gets angry at me though. I guess I just feel like I can't be fully loved. I don't even want to get out of bed in the morning. I feel like a waste of space. A waste of breath. I hate being away from my boyfriend for even an hour. I hate being alone. Maybe he pity's me... I signed up for a psychiatrist, I hope it helps. I just want to feel better. I don't have a job or go to college. I can't get myself to do these things. Everything seems so overwhelming. I wish there was an answer.
iVillage Member
Registered: 08-03-2008
Tue, 10-13-2009 - 12:26am

I know the feeling.Everyday I want to just sleep and not get out of bed. I'm exhausted most of the time. I only force myself to go to work which I dread. Right now my boyfriend lives long distance and it is killing me being so far away from him. I also feel like no one likes me and cares about me at times. I know how hard it can be but hang in there. Everyone here can relate and is here to help.

Christina

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Registered: 10-10-2007
Wed, 10-14-2009 - 12:02pm

I understand how you feel.