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Registered: 10-13-2009
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Tue, 10-13-2009 - 10:57am

Hi, I want to introduce myself. My name is Ren; I'm 33, married, no children. I've had depression and ADHD since childhood. I lost my job in December, and after that I started seeing a therapist. I've seen different therapists before, but for the first time, I feel like I'm actually making progress. It is difficult, though. It seems like the more I make progress and deal with my issues, the harder it gets.

I have a few friends, but no one I can really open up to. My parents were abusive, and I haven't spoken to them in years. I have been married for 4 years; at first I did talk to my husband about my depression and childhood, but then I got to the point I didn't want to think about it anymore. Now I feel like I can't. He's been working and supporting us by himself for almost a year, plus dealing with my mood swings, and I feel like it would be unfair to burden him even more by talking about my feelings. I feel very much alone.

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In reply to: aurelurea
Tue, 10-13-2009 - 4:42pm

Hi Ren.

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Registered: 10-14-2009
In reply to: aurelurea
Wed, 10-14-2009 - 7:42am

Ren, I was worried about sharing my concerns about depression and just being open about it with my boyfriend. I was always apologizing for how I was feeling, but when I realized that he loved me even when I was depressed or crying, that I didn't have to do that anymore.

I think we deserve the chance to be open with all of our loved ones about our feelings, and at the same time we need to take responsibility for helping ourselves as much as we can. So it sounds like you are doing the right thing by seeing a therapist. Why not talk with him/her about opening up to your husband - maybe he can even come with you to an appointment if you would feel safer talking to him in that environment.

Marriage means in sickness and in health - remember that!

Big hugs to you!!