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| Thu, 11-19-2009 - 7:51pm |
Ha anyone ever done this because of anxiety and depression? I woke up today feeling angry because I hate getting of bed anymore. On weekends I spend most of the time in bed. I have been severely depressed for over a year. I have no social life, though I want one, but can't seem to figure out where to start to get one. Anyway, It was 8:00 am when I woke up and I have to catch my bus by 8:30 am. I hadn't showered in 2 days and really needed to take one but couldn't because I got up late again. So Iwas pissed from the start and I got irritated and kind of gave up from there. At around 9 or so I left the house and was trying to catch a cab(which I should not do-too expensive) for work and couldn't get one. I was going to get to work SO late I was mad again. My feeling were jumbled and irritated and I just didn't want to go in. So I called in.
I am a habitual late riser- I just can't get the energy to get moving. I have had problems arriving late to work and I have been warned. I am afraid I will get in trouble tomorrow. I hate work too because there have been some hostile people there being mean to me, making me dread going in.
I have to stop this nonsense. I HAVE to work for a living, I can't get in trouble. This is only a temp job and they could cancel my contract if they want. How do you make your self overcome all these negative thoughts and feelings? Any advice would be much appreciated.

I worked for 33 years before I retired, and I called in sick because of depression and anxiety many, many times.
I'm sorry you're going through this. I understand what you mean about getting out of bed. When I'm depressed it's in two different flavors - usually tinged with anxiety, and rarely I just don't want to see anyone. I'm a teacher so I always have to get up early, and it's hard some days. But I know that I almost always feel better with some human contact. Sometimes the morning (fake) pleasantries annoy me, but I just say "oh, hanging in there" and get on with it. When I'm with my students I generally feel better.
Depression is like a sword with two blades, you feel terrible and then when you don't get something done you feel worse. So it could be worth it to just make that herculean effort to get to work, knowing it could make for a better day.
Is there something you can do to make getting up more pleasant? Like laying your clothes out the night before and having something good for breakfast waiting for you, like some fresh bagels or fruit salad? I used to play a positive thinking CD while I was getting ready (Louise Hay Power Thoughts) and in the winter when it was so dark and dreary I would play music like the Rocky theme.
Is there a support group in your town where you could get out and meet up with other people that can empathize with you? Or another healthy pursuit that would put you in the company of others, like a yoga or dance class? I was feeling terrible the past few days and I forced myself to go to the gym - and I really did feel better afterwards.
Have you read Feeling Good by David Burns? I use some of his techniques for weekends - making a schedule for yourself and then doing an evaluation of your feelings after doing the activities you've planned. It was he that convinced me that staying in bed will NOT make you feel better - the more lethargic you get, the worse you will feel. I understand that it's just impossible sometimes, but maybe you would get some good ideas of how to get out of bed from the book.
Hugs,
Michelle
I've never skipped because of depression but I know that there were a few times that I should have.
You know, maybe you are like me - a night person.