Update on my problems with DD

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Registered: 01-20-2005
Update on my problems with DD
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Thu, 11-26-2009 - 10:17am
Thank you for your support.  I made it through the Wednesday doing my usual things - taught class, ran errands, worked at the store, etc.  I called the doc and asked about the blood work - all normal; however, she didn't run any hormones except thyroid.  I was a little confused by this.  I would like to know why all of a sudden things are so much worse for me.  I know I've had some extra stuff to deal with but up until about three weeks ago I was dealing pretty well and then wham!  Maybe I just ran out of calm time or something.  Anyway, the doc addded Abilify to my 120 mg Cymbalta.  My oldest DD saw this and said she needed to talk to me before I did this - she works in psychiatry and prescribes meds every day.  My husband was there so we didn't discuss it.  Oh, and I got a call from the doc later in the day saying there was a problem with my mammo and they needed to run an ultrasound.  I've had this before so not very worried about this.

When I got home, I apologized to my husband for leaving home and for not handling things better.  I also explained to him that I truly don't feel he has my back when I need it.  I told him that due to his obsessions he has left me out and I have tried to build my own life simply because I didn't have a choice.  He asked if I wanted a divorce.  I told him I don't really know.  He's in therapy.  I'm in therapy.  I also told him that for right now this was the best I could do and it was his choice.  So for now, we're continuing to live in the same house but separately.


He obviously didn't hear what I said about his lack of support.  Youngest DD called him 3 times last night and every time he answered the phone "Hey punkin'" and talked as normal.  She won't answer my calls so I've texted her each night and asked to talk - she says she's not ready.  And as much as that hurts, I do realize she has to work things in her own way.  So we all have to go to Mom's and put on the Happy Thanksgiving face and pretend alls well with our world.  I honestly don't know if I can do this or not but am going to give it a shot.


One thing that posting on the daily accomplishments is helping me to see is that I do have a lot of chaos going on and without a good family relationship to support me I need to find a way to cut back.  Before I had the church youth group to help me focus on my faith and to have fun with.  Now, there is no fun and my faith while strong doesn't have the same amount of focus.  So I definitely need to keep up with that.  Thanks for allowing me the opportunity to post so often here and for your feedback.  This does help.


Lia

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Registered: 08-06-2009
Thu, 11-26-2009 - 6:02pm

Lia - My psychiatrist added abilify to my meds collection and it does seem to have helped.

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Registered: 01-20-2005
Thu, 11-26-2009 - 7:12pm

Youngest DD informed me today that she's not going to talk to me to resolve the problem and she doesn't want to be alone with me.