Today's goal: Live in the present

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Registered: 11-04-1999
Today's goal: Live in the present
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Sat, 11-28-2009 - 4:32am

HI, just sharing it with you,  committing myself to doing this one.   Hubby is driving me the almost 3 hrs to see my Mom that I haven't seen in 3 months for our belated Thanksgiving. 


Now I typically enjoy the day, however, currently uncovering more crap from childhood in therapy,  I need to stay in the present moment and NOT flip back to certain childhood incidents that I am using in EMDR therapy to recover from.


I don't need to look at the corner in the kitchen and see the 5 yr old child that hid there trying to find some safety.


I just now got to remembering that rubber band on the wrist thing, maybe I should put a hair band on my wrist and if I start to flip back, flip myself to the present moment.


what makes today extra challenging is Mom had a sudden significant hearing loss and until hearing aids come in, I have been screaming on the phone to her to even try and communicate with her.


The blessing of the day is, hubby will be totally OK with me saying anything or even crying on the way home.  He would prefer I didn't cry as he sees crying as me hurting. vs. healing, but at least I can let it out when we get to the car if I have to.


I hope to come back tomorrow and tell you all the day went OK.


have a great day ladies, hugs,  Josie.

A hug can turn your day around.


The ultimate freedom we have as human beings is the power to select what we will allow our mind to dwell upon.


I am an unique, beautiful, unrepeatable, miracle of God.


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Registered: 08-06-2009
Sat, 11-28-2009 - 10:17am

You are so lucky that your husband is okay with the crying.

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Registered: 01-20-2005
Sat, 11-28-2009 - 10:06pm

Hope your trip has gone well.

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Registered: 11-04-1999
Sun, 11-29-2009 - 4:47am

Thanks Deb, and so often what you share about your own life, I think I am reading my own journal, we are alike in several ways.


OK: I survived the day.

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Registered: 11-04-1999
Sun, 11-29-2009 - 4:53am

Thanks Lia, and you so understand how something triggers something that triggers something else.


I survived the day, we probably won't get up to see Mom again until something around Christmas or New Years of perhaps even into January.