Boyfriend Died
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| Sat, 11-28-2009 - 1:39pm |
My boyfriend died August 27th. 2 weeks later my cat almost died. I owe a lot of vet bills and debt from before his death and I am unemployed. I am looking or a job but am not having any luck. I am so afraid of what will happen next. I went to the doctor Wednesday and she put me on Pristiq which made my anxiety worse. I was a mess on Thanksgiving. The anxiety is still there but not as bad as Thursday. I am trying to cope but all I do is worry. I am worried about my future. My whole life will change. We did everything together. I depended on him and it turned out that he was not doing so well either.
I am sad and depressed and I am trying to cope. Some people say I am doing well and others say I am not trying enough. I don't feel very strong. I am wondering what ill happen next. There were other things that have happened like his family was nice to me at first and then mean. I drove with my emergency brake on. But the debt really has me worried. I cannot afford another disaster and it will be so hard to work with all this anxiety. I miss him but feel angry at him. He had a heart attack and I found him. Why didn't he tell me he wasn't feeling well.
I just need some support which is why I am posting here. I go to a grief support group and now I am on this antidepressant but I can't stop worrying about the future and am so afraid. I know many of you are depressed but if you have any kind words or somehow can ease my pain and worries I would appreciate it. Thank You.

Ciskaboom,
I am so sorry to hear about your boyfriend.
I am sending a hug and my prayers as well.
My heart felt prayers are with you.
Kris
I am so sorry on your loss and everyone else gave you wonderful advice and support.
Give the med a chance to work, and continue with the grief support group.
Have you tried journaling also?
Thank You everyone for your kind words and support.
I am SO sorry for your loss, I can't begin to imagine what you're going through between grief, debt/bills, and family issues not to mention your kitty's health (((hug))).
We're glad you've found us on the board, and I want to share with you the link to our Bereavement & Healing message board as well.