Sunday's accomplishment

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Sunday's accomplishment
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Sun, 11-29-2009 - 11:27pm

Well, I woke up this a.m. and couldn't face church.  I did however start some journaling of sorts.  I made a picture (used clip art) with the picture of God's hand and Adam's hand in the center and something that symbolized all my stressors surrounding it.  I know that God will carry me through all of this.  I then made one page for each stressor.  I put the picture for each thing on one page and wrote a few lines explaining the stressor and, if possible what I was doing about each one.  On a couple of the pages, I put some Bible verses.  I will add to this over the next week.


I again texted DD asking to talk to her.  I got a very short reply - she had gone back to her apt 1 1/2 hrs away.  She did this last night without telling me or her dad goodbye.  So I printed out my pages and wrote her a letter.  I explained that I wanted her to know what all is going on with me and what I was doing to get better - with therapy and medication adjustments.  I also apologized to her for hurting her.  I got her dog and we got in the car and I made the drive (5th time in 8 days) to hand deliver it to her.  When I arrived, she was coming out of her apt.  I simply told her that since she wouldn't talk to me and that I had things I felt she needed to know I wrote it out for her.  I gave it to her, told her I loved her, kissed her on her head and left.  Somehow, what I wrote made her mad.  She called me and started to rehash our previous arguments.  I told her I didn't come down there to do that - just to let her know what was going on with me.  She got mad, said something pretty hateful and hung up.


At some point, she mentioned that she left her mother-in-law's early and without saying goodbye to anyone.  She said she'd had the weekend from Hell.  It dawned on me her DH was not at the apt with her and that he wouldn't have left his mom's early because he had plans for today.  Also, I don't think I caused her weekend from Hell since she didn't see or talk to me.  The pieces started falling into place.  During each of those arguments, she had that tone that she used to get when she was mad at him and taking it out on me.  Unfortunately, once the first tear falls, the dam breaks for me right now.  I don't believe this was entirely my fault.  I also know that I've done all I can do (at least for now) to try to work this out with her.  I can usually begin to find peace once I believe I've done my best.  So hopefully, I will start to settle down about this and can move on to the rest of the stressors.  I also believe that once they both get back into their routine in their home, she'll get better.  Only 5,597 stressors to go:)


Thank you all for being patient with me and for all the hugs and words of support.  Of course, I'm not so niave as to think I will feel better for more than one full day but I can wish, can't I?


Oh, and I did replace my cell phone today and will be making a phone call for obedience lessons for that dog.  I often wonder what is the craziest thing they've ever heard.  As a teacher, some of the craziest excuses for no homework have included:  my book was in my trunk, it rained, and the trunk leaked; my baby pooped on it; and, the one I've heard more than once - I was in jail and just got out this morning.  At least the southern jailbirds are attempting to get an education!!

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Mon, 11-30-2009 - 5:06am

Hi Lia,

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Registered: 10-10-2007
Mon, 11-30-2009 - 11:33am

My accomplishment was cleaning and organizing the upstairs playroom/computer room!