how do i let it go?

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Registered: 01-16-2008
how do i let it go?
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Sun, 12-06-2009 - 11:44am

we'll start at the beginning,


im 20 years old (young I know) and I lost my virginity in May to a man that I thought I was in love with. Sounds juvenile I know. Who am I kidding?, it was. All very junior high-esque. In more ways than one, i felt very taken advantage of mostly because I know he didnt feel the same way i felt. He knew i loved him though. Long story short, we didnt stay together. I moved away and found our he had given me and STD, a curable one thank god. from there, i received treatment, but it wouldnt go away. it took four rounds of antibiotics and eventually I got contracted pelvic inflammatory disease. Its been three months since this all ended and only here lately I've noticed that I feel like i cant have feelings for anyone. im all of the sudden very guarded and scared. i know this is something that only i can fix, i just need insight on how to go about doing so. any advice is nice, this is eating me up inside

life

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Registered: 11-30-2009
Sun, 12-06-2009 - 2:46pm

Welcome to the board!

siggy waterfall
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Registered: 09-20-2003
Tue, 12-08-2009 - 3:20pm

Mae2008,


Its ok.

Brightest Blessings, Annika


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Registered: 08-06-2009
Tue, 12-08-2009 - 7:47pm

mae2008 - You have to give yourself time to get over this.