I GIVE

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Registered: 01-06-2005
I GIVE
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Sun, 12-06-2009 - 10:04pm
I keep trying to do this on my own. I am losing the battle. I have been on Zoloft, for hot flashes and I think at this point I should finally consider I am not just on this for hot flashes.I feel so helpless, I hate being dependent on something. I feel like I am such a failure. I keep trying to prove myself wrong,I want to believe I am the acception to the rule. My dh left me, still not sure why.maybe I never will understand. I always feel like I give and give and give. I doted over him as I do my children. But it still was not enough.I hate asking for help,and at this point he is still helping me survive, OMG I hate not being able to support my children on my own. I know he is obligated to help. But I would rather never have contact with him again. (my opinion) he would not have anything to do with us if it were not for his parents. This will be the first year I have to spend x-mas alone.The kids will fly out on the 19th. I hear all my friends and people I know, say I should not send them, But I am bound by fairness. I always have. I guess I am just feeling sorry for myself as usual.I guess he right.
Dee
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Registered: 01-20-2005
In reply to: ckcmommy
Sun, 12-06-2009 - 11:24pm

I am sending a hug your way.

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Registered: 01-06-2005
In reply to: ckcmommy
Sun, 12-06-2009 - 11:42pm

23 years of marriage but the youngest is 7 years old. the oldest is 19.

Dee