Triggers from birth families
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| Sun, 12-13-2009 - 5:48am |
OK, I will be 54 in January. Have been in therapy for over 7 years.
Will there ever be a day when I can hear one of my 2 sisters voices on the phone and not have my anxiety awaken and then replay it over and over in my mind for hours on end.
I should have known NOT to call my Mom yesterday as I knew there was a chance sis would be there. But I called and just the few comments from sis, and I feel like crap, flash back to childhood, flash back to even last year when she had her way and we stayed home at thanksgiving vs. going to my other sisters.
God tells me to turn the other cheek, to forgive.
But right now, I don't feel too Christian, I am upset and I want to retaliate and get even.
I sure hope Pastor has a word of advice for me in his sermon today.
Plan to exercise here directly, maybe I can sweat the bad thoughts away.
Another day of managing my depression and anxiety the best I can. Josie.

Hey Josie,
(Big hug).
Holy crap!!! I was just going to for the first time start a discussion on this very topic and players.
I swear my family is the worst for setting me off
Thanks Ang, sounds like we have similar families.
I am NOT going to my sister's for Christmas this year.
Thanks Heidi.
I have beaten myself up year after year trying to be what I am not. I am too much for my family. I freak them out because I have figured out the secrete life is not a dress rehersal. They think it is a cross to bear. I say go to it stay the cource keep the triggers out families can turn you into what you don't want to be faster than