new and in need of support

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-22-2009
new and in need of support
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Tue, 12-22-2009 - 2:23am

So, I'm new, and I guess just trying this whole cyber support thing out.I suffer from depression, basically for all my short life, and I need someone to vent to. I guess the whole point of this is that I have no one. It seems my friends all have someone better to spend their time with. My real problem is my one friend, who I want to consider my best friend, who I've known for six years and have gone through everything with. I've told her everything personal. She's one of the only people I've done that to. Now she's ignoring me, not taking my calls, not answering my texts, and when she asks to hang out, at the last second she adds that two other friends will be joining us. It just makes me mad and sad that she won't talk to me, especially considering she knows how unhappy I am to begin with. I feel like I hate her, but at the same time I need her. I will go crazy... and I just needed to tell someone about this. This is just one of my many problems, but at the moment the biggest. Now that it's winter break I realize how little point there is in waking up every day considering I have nothing to do and no one to do it with.


Whew. So dramatic.

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Registered: 11-04-1999
Tue, 12-22-2009 - 5:23am

Good morning, glad you found us.


OK, just my 2 cents, but maybe that "friend" is a little uncomfortable if you told her all your personal things?

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Registered: 08-06-2009
Tue, 12-22-2009 - 10:21am

Hi - I had a friend who I had known for 20 years and I considered her my best friend, but she used to pull the same stuff on me.

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Registered: 11-20-2009
Tue, 12-22-2009 - 2:19pm
You are not dramatic - just being honest about how you really feel. I am told I am a drama queen, I don't even care anymore about what others say because they don't have a clue how I feel. People stab you in the back all the time and sometimes it seems easier to give up on finding true friends than to keep putting yourself out there to get your heart stomped on over and over. But, I believe that there are still some good friends out there waiting to be found. I am a good friend to others, I know. I never just give up anymore and I have every reason to because I am so sick and spend most of my time in a hospital bed at home looking at the mess this house is in and I don't feel like doing anything because of the severe pain I am always in. I have lost most everyone I ever loved. I am close to losing my husband now also as he is in heart failure and very ill. I don't know whoI will have to turn to for support then. So I come here and reach out to make myself a new life because life is about reinventing yourself to new circumstances all the time. I am Debbie and my email is ladyjeanene@yahoo.com. Write me and let's just chill and talk. I am 48 and live out in the middle of nowhere and expecting a blizzard right now and never have been in one before!
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Registered: 11-30-2009
Tue, 12-22-2009 - 3:39pm

Welcome to the board!

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