Back again..downhill slide
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| Mon, 12-28-2009 - 5:08pm |
Hi everyone. I hope everyone managed to have a good holiday, and that you had friends and family close by! I try my best to keep my spirits up and do all the "decorating" and stuff for the sake of my 3 kids. This year my heart was just not in it at all. I knew it wouldnt' be because I can always tell when I am on a downhill spiral with my dysthymia. I stopped my cymbalta a number of months ago because I just couldn't deal with the side effects (hot flashes, sweating like crazy). I did ok for a while..but I know now that I am starting to have major depression issues again. I guess this is the "dysthymia" my psychiatrist was telling me about. Apparently it is harder to treat than regular depression episodes because it is long term..and been ongoing for as long as I can remember.
But I think I have also come to the conclusion that until I deal with my life issues..my unhappy marriage..that things probably wont get much much better, because being miserable in my marriage is only contributing to my depression. I just wish I had a simple solution, but I dont. I am unemployed, no degree, no college and no skills. So how do I manage to get a job to support myself and my kids if I were to leave?? UGH. I feel trapped, depressed and mentally/physically exhausted.
Thanks for letting me vent.

Judy - you're not alone.
Thank you very much for your reply Deb.
Hi Judy: