My first post

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Registered: 07-12-2006
My first post
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Tue, 01-05-2010 - 3:20pm

Hello,


I don't know why my font is black. I tried to make it green...sorry. I have fought depression for over 20 yrs. Mine is clinical. Some good days and a lot of bad ones. I look around at people when I'm out and they seem to taking life in stride. I have to take a few days just to work up to going to the grocery store. I just lost my mom on Oct. 21 and my dad almost four yrs ago. Back to depression.


I can remember it as clear as day when my depression and anxiety hit. I was 19 and had two little girls. I was very lucky that my mom and dad stepped in and took care of them. We were staying at their house at the time. (me and the kids.) I woke up during the night hyperventilating. It was horrible. I felt like I couldn't breathe. I went to bed and stayed there for three weeks. I only got up to shower. I couldn't eat or sleep. This happened in the early '70's. Depression, anxiety, and any kind of mental problem wasn't talked about. I ended up in the hospital and I came out feeling better and loaded down with valium.


I won't take up anymore of your time. I'm looking forward to getting to know all of you good people.


Have a geat day.....peace......SilverTears                         Please tell me if I posted this incorrectly

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Registered: 08-07-2007
Tue, 01-05-2010 - 4:58pm

I'm glad you found us Silvertears, and no worries you posted just fine.

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Registered: 12-20-2009
Tue, 01-05-2010 - 5:14pm

Hi... =)

First, I don't think you should think of it as "taking up our time" - we all want to be here and need the support just as you do, so, first and foremost, you need to know that, k?

I think if I had had two kids at 19 I would have woken one day hyperventilating as well! =) I have three beautiful kids, but it was tough when they were little - very, very stressful for someone who doesn't tolerate stress - or messes! - very well. =)

Have you tried therapy? I haven't had much luck in that department, but many have - you may, too. I find reaching out to others helps me some, so maybe posting on here will help you feel a bit better as well.

I also think you need to give yourself more time to grieve your mom; I can't even imagine the loss you might be feeling. Sometimes therapy helps in this department too I think, but I'm not sure - others on the board may know.

One last thing - I think seeing others "taking life in stride" is probably a bit of an illusion. I'm guessing you and I and most everyone look that way when we're out and about - my guess is they're all fighting one demon or another - most of us are!

I hope you will post again... Take care...

Stacey

When you do something for someone else, you create meaning in your own life as well as theirs. What you give you get to keep. What you fail to give you lose forever.

Stacey When you do something for someone else, you create meaning in your own life as well as theirs. What you give you get to keep. What you fail to give you lose forever.
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Registered: 11-30-2009
Wed, 01-06-2010 - 10:43am

Welcome to the board!

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Registered: 08-06-2009
Wed, 01-06-2010 - 12:38pm

Hi, SilverTears - You are not taking up our time.