Feeling Worthless
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| Sat, 01-09-2010 - 2:19pm |
Thanks to all for the words of comfort and support regarding my depression. I'm really trying to work on it, but I just can't seem to get past the feeling of worthlessness because I did not go to college. No, I chose to get married at 19 to my high school sweetheart. Big mistake. He was an alcoholic and I wasted an entire decade on this guy. When I finally divorced him, I was left alone with a 4 year-old to raise on my own. With no college degree, I became a secretary. We barely got by. As I got older, I thought it too late, plus I had no money. I did not come from a supportive family. No one ever showed any interest in me or my education. Now I'm 58 years old fighting depression. I may overcome the depression, but I don't know if I will ever feel worthy. I just feel so inferior to everyone.
Thanks for allowing me to vent today.
Bea

Hi,
There are so many free online classes now that you can take some mini clases online and that might make you feel better. Also, college isn't everything that it's cracked up to be. Sometimes you learn more from the school of hard knocks and life experience than any college classroom will ever teach you. Hugs to you. Rifka
Your not worthless because you didn't go to college!!!!!
Hi Bea,
I agree with Rifka. I have a master's degree and am unemployed. I know many people without degrees who are doing okay (or well) and I would never consider them worthless. I think therapy would help a lot to get you to the point where you can believe you're not worthless without a degree and overcome the things you were told (or not told) growing up.
As Heidi said, you made the best choices you could. My first pregnancy was a surprise and much younger than I intended. I wanted to stay home with her (and the other two) which threw a big wrench in my career. There are things I regret, of course, and maybe I'd change them if I could go back, but I'm trying to accept that I can't go back no matter how much I wish I could. The older I get, the more I realize I'm losing time worrying about the past. I know it's difficult to not feel "too old" in our culture that's so focused on the young, but I think with some help you'd find the way to improve and enjoy your future instead of focusing on what could have been. This is my goal for myself this year. I don't want to waste any more time concerned with the things I can't change and focus on the things I can. I don't think I can do it by myself, so I'm going to see a counselor and find a way to stick with it. VERY tough for me to do, but I think it will help. Well, I'm hoping it will anyway. Maybe it could help you too. =)
Take care,
Stacey
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