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| Sun, 01-10-2010 - 8:10pm |
I just kind of want to say an apology to anyone who thinks I perhaps say a bit much on this board. I wholeheartedly believe the quote that comes after my signature and truly hope that I am at least just a bit helpful on here.
I really have no friends and stay at home in physical pain virtually all the time because it limits me in what I can do, so I got on here to find support the same way each of you has. I have suffered from depression much longer than I've been in physical pain, so I understand each and every post that I've read, which is why I have felt compelled to respond when I have.
I have always wished someone besides myself could understand and give me some insight or ideas. Somehow I can't quite seem to be my own best support... Therapy is key, I know, but tough for me to stick with, unfortunately.
Anyway, just kind of on my mind... I feel like I've been tossed away by people throughout my life and I'm so tired of it I cry quite often. I try to tell myself it's because people have their own lives to lead, but I haven't really been able to convince myself that it's really that.
I don't want to keep showing up where I'm not wanted or considered helpful, but I don't want to stop reaching out to others either... I'm really just not sure what to do anymore, honestly...
Stacey
When you do something for someone else, you create meaning in your own life as well as theirs. What you give you get to keep. What you fail to give you lose forever.
Edited 1/10/2010 8:18 pm ET by staceyboothe1964

Stacey,
I have found your advice and support very helpful. Sometimes I feel so lost and alone. I have some comfort in knowing if I feel overwhelmed, or I need advice, I can come here and talk to people who understand how I'm feeling.
I completely understand what you mean when you said you can't quite seem to be your own support. I often wonder why I seem to hold myself to a different and higher standard than other people. What I accept from others I berate myself for.
I just want you to know I appreciate your input here!
31 Million Seconds
Stacey,
I too appreciate your support.
Please do not apologize. There's nothing wrong with venting. It's good to vent and get your emotions out in order to make you feel better. I know how you feel - depression is a horrible thing to experience. Some days I just want to dig a hole and crawl inside and hide - except I'm claustrophobic, haha! Anyway, I know you feel that you are alone but we're here for you any time you need someone to vent to. We will help anyway that we can. Take care,
Michelle