depression w/loneliness

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Registered: 03-28-2008
depression w/loneliness
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Thu, 02-04-2010 - 1:29pm

My husband told me in June that he wanted a divorce because he could no longer live a lie - that he was gay. Our 5th wedding anniversary passed this Dec. I have been devastated. I was already depressed before that and ended up moving in with my parents. A suicide attempt followed on New Years. I no longer have those constant thoughts, thank the Lord. I started some new meds from my psychiatrist. Biologically my depression has improved, but I am somewhat socially isolated. I have no close friends here. I am in some support groups at my church.

I am lonely and there is a huge void where my husband was in my life. I could use some friends, even online friends.
Please don't say awful things about my husband...I have heard them all already. It doesn't help me.

I am grieving the loss of who I believed my husband to be. I think I am in denial still about what is truly happening...that I will be losing him. I still love him. It is so very hard. It is as if he died


 


 

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Registered: 08-06-2009
Thu, 02-04-2010 - 2:22pm

Hi, quirkycrab - so sorry you're in so much pain.

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Registered: 03-28-2008
Thu, 02-04-2010 - 2:30pm

Hi,


I am seeing a therapist for talking. And a psychiatrist for a little talking with meds. I actually have an appt for therapy this afternoon.


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Registered: 11-30-2009
Thu, 02-04-2010 - 4:31pm

((HUG))

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Registered: 01-30-2010
Fri, 02-05-2010 - 4:59pm

You are not alone.


Trust who you are, a resilient and desirable person.


Loneliness is a difficult emotion and exceedingly difficult to express in a healthy way as most other emotions can be expressed toward or with other people. Take charge of your independence, do something you love entirely by yourself. Although eating at your favorite restaurant and going to a movie alone may seem like the most