criostiona - are you okay?

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Registered: 11-30-2009
criostiona - are you okay?
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Fri, 02-05-2010 - 3:55pm

Criostiona,


I have not seem you post on the board in a long time, so wanted to see how you are doing?  Please post and let us know your okay????


Hugs,


 

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Registered: 11-28-2009
Tue, 02-23-2010 - 5:56pm

Hi Heidi,

Thank you for checking in. This is going to be a long story, but I'll try my best to keep it concise.

Last time we talked, I was hoping that the health department would be able to provide me with health insurance, and therefore be able to provide me with counseling and medication for my depression. The news was not good. I make just a little bit too much to qualify for health insurance through the health department, but I don't make enough to pay for health insurance on my own. The health department said I could still receive counseling from them, but it would cost $80 a visit. I just can't afford that.

I basically gave up. I figured no one cared about me. I also began to think that nothing would help me anyway. I felt that being depressed was just part of my personality, and no amount of medication or counseling would help.

This past week was one of the worst of my life. Unless I had to go to work, I could barely drag myself out of bed. I hated every second that I was at work. I still feel that if I could get a better job and move away from where I'm living right now, I would feel a little better. However, I know I will never get a better job if I can't make it through an interview, and I can't make it through an interview unless I beat this depression and anxiety.

Therefore, I called my family doctor yesterday and said I was very depressed and I needed an appointment. I have an appointment tomorrow morning. I also have a list of the $4 mental health medications that the Walmart Pharmacy offers. I'm hoping that one of those will work for me. I know it will be hard for me to afford multiple visits to the doctor if my medication needs adjusted, but I have to try.

I'm hoping that tomorrow I will be able to come here and say that I'm officially on medication, on the road to recovery, and feeling better.

I blog all about it:
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Registered: 11-30-2009
Wed, 02-24-2010 - 11:02am
How did your doctor appointment go???
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Registered: 11-28-2009
Thu, 02-25-2010 - 9:57am

My doctor put me on fluoxetine (the generic form of Prozac) and I took my first pill this morning. I'm starting with 10mg for 7 days, and then moving up to 20mg. We will adjust from there. I go back at the end of March to see how I'm handling the drug, and how I'm feeling.

She's hoping that the drug can help both my depression and my anxiety. I know it won't start working immediately, every medication needs some time to kick in, but I'm truly hoping this is the start to getting my life back on track.

I have yet to tell my parents how I've been feeling and what's been going on in my life. They are coming to visit me in 2 weeks and I plan on calmly explaining that I was feeling depressed, went to the doctor, and she put me on an antidepressant. I don't want them to worry, but I know they need to know.

I blog all about it:
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