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Where is everybody, check in please!!
| Thu, 10-30-2003 - 4:42pm |
I am just curious where everybody is at!! How is everybody doing? What kind of weather are you having today? What are your plans for the weekend?
I am hanging in there today, it is cold and windy outside and I have no weekend plans!!
Love you all!! Sharon

It's Katie here, I'm very confused by everything recently. Mum told me today I was starting to get too thin, and should stop, but I promised I would stop when I lost 16 more pounds, but will it be enough, will I stop? I don't know!
Boyfriend told me he may be moving house, changing job in a totally different place, be a hour drive away from me, I'm not happy, but what can I do? I accept he has a life, and I no way at all want to control his life, I hate mine being controlled, so I'm not gonna force anything on him, I just told him it was ok as long as he was happy, but deep down I am upset, but what can I do? I know from my past experience, that I cannot change anything, no matter how hard I try, I just watch everything slip away slowly and painfully. I dunno.
I'm starting to binge past 3 weeks, once a week I have started to eat so much I hurt my tummy, I feel so ill from so much food, I am going ok for the day, I have a certain amount of cals by 6 pm, and I feel happy, but I just lose it sometimes and eat pizza, chinese, everything and do not count the numbers, (well I do count, but I never know exact) every bite I am averaging the calories, and adding it up, then I go to bed, and feel crap, knowing I have so much in me, and if I have had over 3500 I know I will gain, but we all know that anyway I am sure. Sorry, if thats trig'
People have started to say your really slim, and I feel good, and they ask what I eat, how I do it, I tell them that 80% of my food each day is sugar, chocolate and sweets, they dont believe me, but when I asked them, if you were dieting, you would want to eat the foods you like, but control it, they agreed, and so I said I eat choc for breakfast, tiny bit of lean meat mid day and then more sweets at night.
I eat so much sugar, it's crazy, I don't know how I manage it, but I just cannot imagine eating salad or vegatables, there gross!! Lol.
I may starve but I still eat choc, I want to enjoy a diet, nice food and lose wieght, not salad and fruit, yuk! Do many of you guys live on sugar too?
Anyway I dont know what else to say, oh something else, I had past 2 weeks massive change in exercise, I am pushing myself so damn hard, I was walking for 4 and half hours one day, I had no idea I was walking that long, and I was not tired at all, it's kinda worrying, but it feels good, you know?
Lost 3 more pounds recently, and I look at myself naked and I just look huge, bigger then when I was 3 pounds heavier, damnit! I'm wierd!
Anyway thats me, sorry to bug you guys, hoping your all ok. Hope I didn't trigger.
Thinking of you all, sorry it was long.
Love you guys,
Kate
x
Weather in NYC is pleasant and cool, but warm around the edges.
hope you are well!
Shortie-pie.
Hi Sharon!
Doing ok - still trying to figure out my hormonal and stomach problems. Some good days, some bad days. It's muggy here, today and we don't have any exciting plans for the weekend. Since it's Halloween today we are staying home tonight handing out candy and showing kiddo halloween movies in the driveway. Tomorrow evening we are going on our date night (normally that's Fridays). Sunday we are having church at a BBQ place downtown which has an awesome Gospel brunch.
Gotta run....need to do Friday Five. Love ya.
Love & hugs, Kristina
Love & hugs, Kristina