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| Mon, 11-03-2003 - 1:12pm |
My name is Hattie. I'm 18. In my pre-teens I started hanging out with the wrong crowd. I never felt like I fit in so I tried to fit in with anyone I could. I started drinking, smoking and using any drug by the time I was 12. I had severe depression and always had difficulty accepting that I was adopted. School was not important. I crashed a lot of cars and partied too much. I don't know where I'm trying to go with all of this, but I really need to get some help. I was raped 4 different times and I've been physically, mentally, sexually and financially abused. By the time I was 17, I was living on my own, engaged and had my 2nd miscarrage. I was selling drugs and using too. My eating habits were so out of control and with the combination of drugs, anorexia, bulimia and depression, my weight had plumeted to the low 80's. After awhile I hit rock bottom and my parents forced me into treatment for drugs. I went to inpatient, then outpatient, a sober school- was expelled for relasping and now I start a new program today. I've seen too many therapists and Drs that I don't know when I will ever get better and I have so many issues to work out that sometimes my ED doesn'y even seem to matter to my family. Right now I'm stressing because I may be pregnant with my ex-fiance's baby and he's been cheating on his girlfriend with me. I don't know what to do anymore. Last night my mother and I got in a big argument and afterwards I was writing a suicide letter! I have never had suicidal thoughts. Please help! I don't know what board I should post on but my ED is a big contribution to my problems! HELP!!

Much Love
Allyx
Hi Hattie, I am glad you decided to post here. It sounds like you have been through quite a bit in your young life and are still going through a lot. Whether this is the right board for you or not is only something you can figure out but I know
Love & hugs, Kristina
Hattie I am also glad that you posted here.