Lost pawz, all. I'm sorry. *Trig*
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| Tue, 11-04-2003 - 4:08pm |
It hurt for me to recall all that, but maybe I needed to do that to move on, I'm just sobbing, and feeling like such a fool for posting that about my experiences, I'm sorry.
If only life was easy, if only.
Maybe starving myself, and killing myself with Overdoses and blades will be the best option, maybe I can escape this crap hole I am supposed to call a life.
I'm 19, and I sound like a freaking nutcase when I talk about some of the stuff I have experienced. ughh.
Hating yourself, bringing yourself to near death, why did I do it?
Why did I think starving myself, or taking so many pills would help me, maybe it will help me, maybe I can just escape all the freaking numbers, all the crap.
Past 6 months, I have been in A and E, in casualty, 18 times, all from huge overdoses on painkillers, tubes down throats, IV lines, Charcoal, so much...
Maybe I should have not been found and forced to hospital, maybe I would be in a damn grave and no longer thinking of food, numbers or fear.
Ughh, I'm sorry guys.
This is a low night for me, I'm sorry. I don't mean to trigger.
I'm sorry. Just ignore that fat whale of a girl called Kate, UGHHH!!
Kate
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| Tue, 11-04-2003 - 6:05pm |
