My dear friends. Thankyou.

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Registered: 05-03-2003
My dear friends. Thankyou.
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Tue, 11-11-2003 - 4:20pm
My previous posts, I apologise deeply over making you upset.

I didn't want to do that, I just wanted to talk about feelings truthfully, I talk truthfully about my feelings so few times, I just seem to let go on here and upset many, I am so sorry.

I will control my rants and posts on here now. Sorry.

I just want to say thankyou for supporting me, you all have bigger problems then my petty little rants, and you still take time out to listen to me, and reply, or think about me, thankyou so much, you really are wonderful people, I do not deserve you.

I lose one pound, then one more, then you've lost over half of 100 pounds and you still feel huge, crazy world huh!

I said to myself today, if I lose one more pound tomorrow, and exercise a bit more today, maybe tomorrow I will wake up and be a good person, maybe people will like me, or listen to me, not just my lies they want to hear.

I hope so desperately, that tomorrow I will wake up and look in the mirror and see a nice person, someone who is responsble, and helps others, and listens, and ....I dunno, just to be a nice person, to be liked and maybe...maybe loved a tiny bit...maybe I am just greedy. Sorry, ranting on.

Sorry, I have to go, have said too much, kicking myself now. I'm going out for a walk, will check the site later tonight.

Love you all, your all great,

Kate

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tue, 11-11-2003 - 5:51pm
Kate, you are so hard on yourself!!! I have been reading your posts for a very long time and since I have known you, your problems are not any less painful than anybody else's. So what I am saying is, your pain is real and your struggles are real. Please stop beating yourself up. You are such a giving person and it is ok to express what you are feeling inside. Keep expressing your pain and opening up, it can help you sort it out in your head. Keep fighting girl, you can get through this!!! I love you, Sharon
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Wed, 11-12-2003 - 6:42am

Hi Katie,


Sharon is right, you are struggling just like we are so why shouldn't you be able to open up and say what's going. You won't get better unless you do so keep it coming.


Why do you feel you are not a good person or not loved? What gives you that impression? I love you and care about you and I know God loves you very much.


Please keep fighting.

Love & hugs, Kristina


Love & hugs, Kristina