"recovered" Will it be good enough?

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Registered: 05-03-2003
"recovered" Will it be good enough?
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Thu, 11-13-2003 - 8:02pm
I was thinking, one day I may be "fully recovered" will I be really happy?

Will I ever forget numbers, food and clothe sizes?

will I eat healthily and be slim, and not overeat because I cannot manage to eat a normal amount? Will I eat bits of everything in moderation, and not go crazy with it?

The eat little or eat all choice? Can I do the between? And not want to get rid of it quickly?

When I am a healthy wieght, and maintaining it well, I have a good attitude about food, life, and how to control my feelings positively, and make right choices, will people look at me and say "she looks perfect now" or will there be something wrong?

Will I have bad hair, or a few spots on my chin, or my clothes are old, or my job is not perfect? Maybe my car will not be as good the next persons?

How do we walk around, saying were "ok now" when there will be something wrong, there will always be an imperfection, what do we do then, do we aim to correct the problem or imperfection, or what?

How would you deal with not being perfect ever? What do you do that is "right" ?

Just a few thoughts, sorry there deep.

Night all,

Kate x

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Registered: 08-28-2003
Thu, 11-13-2003 - 9:27pm
Hi Kate,

well, as the old saying goes 'Beauty is in the eye of the beholder'. I think as long as you think you are beautiful (inside & out) the world will too. My therapist once said 'The world will stop being against you when you stop being against yourself.' Trust me, NO ONE is perfect. While some guys may go wild for Gwyneth Paltrow or Jennifer Aniston, others may think they're grossly underweight. Still other guys might even think Pamela Anderson is ugly because she's fake, other guys might go gaga over her. And, from what I've experienced, guys like women with a few extra pounds because they're real. They can bear children, they can go on adventures & activities, they can actually EAT something besides a piece of lettuce and a water when they go out. However you look, as long as you love yourself, that is all that matters. You can strive for perfection...but that's not what life is about....think about it, NO ONE is perfect (only GOD is!!!!). remember we all make choices in life....you can choose to be miserable because you're not a size 4 or whatever your idea of "perfection' is, or you can focus on the positive, be thankful for the blessings in your life, be thankful you can see the sunrise and that you can walk, etc...little things we take for granted. Would you tell anyone you loved that they should watch their lives pass them by because hey are obsessed about something so trivial as a few pounds or this food or that food? No, so don't do it to yourself. You don't have to be a victim/prisoner to numbers, food, or anything. You are an Adult and you can make the CHOICE to be happy and love yourself no matter what size you are. Anyway I hope that helps dear : ) I haven't posted on this board for like 6 weeks or something...when I had a veritible 'mental & physical breakdown'.anyway I am doing much better now, in an Intensive Out Patient treatment center for my ED (bulimia), on disabliity to work thru my depresion & anxiety.I know how tough things get sometimes in :Life, and it's easy to resort to the ED or worry about trivial matters to try and avoid the real issues and feelings.....but just love yourself and make logical choices, choose to live freely and fully, because this life is not a test!!!!!!!! Your life is now : )

Cheers,

Janine : )

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Fri, 11-14-2003 - 2:22am
YOU CAN FEEL GOOD AND RECOVER. It is all about thinking positive and knowing there is a way out. I am getting there and am much better, Now, I need to get my eating under control cos I eat way too much=not always bad foods so could be worse. I know you can get there. Satan is making you think all those bad thought and that is why people who are thin and can't get any thinner, still think they are fat. He doesn't want to see you recovered and happy.....but know in your heart you have the power to fight those thoughts.

I am here for you anytime, please keep in touch

Ally xxx